Monday, August 13, 2012

Searching! (part 1 of 3)

First: I would like to thank you all for the words of encouragement and support. Your comments gave me the strength and courage to deal with what may come. You are all truly the reason I continue to write and smile. Thank you so much. It means more than I could possibly put into words. HUGS B

Look well into thyself;
there is a source of strength
which will always spring up
if thou wilt always look there.
     Marcus Aurelius


I slide my still pretty painted toes into my wool socks and hiking shoes and head to the bush. I have not been back here in well over a week for a number of reasons, I need this. I need to feel the falling rain on my face and the smell of the hardy Red cedars and those beautiful tall Pines. I need to hear that forgotten sound of the rain bouncing off the leaves of those very thirsty trees. I need to leave my challenging thoughts on the kitchen table and just be surrounded by this place I love. I will find an old wet rock and sit; I will pull out my pen and paper and let my thoughts and this bush completely consume me. Let us see if this will work. You are welcome to join me if you like.

 I am taking my time walking down the lane covered with beautiful muddy puddles and enjoying the light drizzle of a rain I had been waiting patiently for, I  look up to the sky full of dark looming clouds, clouds of hope. I enter the bush of peaceful thoughts, I find that perfect spot. I sit on this huge rock that may have been here since the beginning of time. I pull out my pen and paper, my camera and my water. I sit under the leafy green old Maple tree where just a couple of weeks ago the (I am pretty sure it was) bear had been sitting. I am perfectly safe as I am assuming this early in the morning that the bear is at the crazy people feeding station or napping after a full night meal.  There are no songs in my head so I shout out “Hello” periodically to warn the bear of my presence, (just in case). I try to pull out some silly songs to sing or hum, there are none? I have no idea if bears even like hiking in the rain unlike farm girls like me. I carry no granola bars or apples in my pack. I wish I had never heard of the person feeding the bears.


The rock is a little damp but the rain has stopped for now. I can hear the familiar chattering of a Chipmunk and the loud taunting sound of a Blue Jay I have no idea what they are arguing about, I can only imagine. Maybe; delicious last nuts on the forest floor fight. Other than that sound it is so quiet, stillness that is almost haunting. I had forgotten this kind of silence.

I can hear the faint whispering of the leaves rustling when a sudden gust of wind swoops over the tree tops. I am positive this is where I am supposed to be today. My place to think, or not to think, my place of solitude. The Chipmunk and Blue Jay appeared to have settled whatever they were trying to work out, the wind has died down and the silence is deafening. I can hear my heart beating and every breath I take. I hold my breath and listen to my heart beating One, two, and three…. Oh how I needed this.


“Hello” I shout loudly. Where have all my songs gone?  I have always had a silly song bouncing around in my head, a song I would share with the creatures of this forest.

Later

22 comments:

  1. peace. silence...except for the sounds of nature.
    that's probably why there were no songs in your head. you left them back at home...this is what you needed...a clear head. time alone, in your special place...to think, listen, feel and write.
    the songs will come. :) xo

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  2. Ahhhh....there is no better place to be.........

    Sing on, luv!

    *hugs*

    Mimi

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  3. Just one of those lovely 'draw a deep breath' moments when the rest of the world falls away and there is just you and nature. Beautiful.

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  4. I'm glad you have this peaceful place to retreat to. Hope your day is great today Buttons!

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  5. Quiet time, AHHH. I need some of that! Except for the bear part, I could walk in the woods for hours!

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  6. I can almost smell the sweet foresty air.

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  7. I would loved to been there with you,Buttons...except for one concern. The 'Bear'.

    Hugs fr auntie m

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  8. I just love your photos and words, Buttons but what I love most is you found some moments for yourself in your beloved bush.

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  9. I love being in your pocket on your walk down the lane, it feel like I am right there with you.... and I would be really listening for that bear.

    What a beautiful, peaceful place!!

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  10. Beautiful peaceful photos and words. I am glad you had some time to relax and think.

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  11. I enjoyed following along on your walk of solitude and peace...Your so kind to share your haven with us..
    ~~Blessings~~

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  12. i am glad you allowed yourself some peace. even if your inner songs are silenced right now...

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  13. So glad that you got to enjoy your woods. I believe that the rush of wind through the treetops was your Dad giving you a great big hug. You are truly his daughter when comes to the solitude of the woods.

    Love You, BA

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  14. For the next trip into the bush...

    Oh, mairzy doats and dozy doats and little lambsy divey
    A kiddley divey, too. Wouldn't you?
    Oh, mairzy doats and dozy doats and little lambsy divey
    A kiddley divey, too. Wouldn't you?

    If the words sound queer and funny to your ear,
    A little bit jumbled and jivey.
    Say, "Mares eat oats and does eat oats
    and little lambs eat ivy."

    Oh, mairzy doats and dozy doats and little lambsy divey
    A kiddley divey, too. Wouldn't you?
    Oh, mairzy doats and dozy doats and little lambsy divey
    A kiddley divey, too. Wouldn't you?

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  15. i have such a difficult time in the heat but you inspire me to enjoy nature more!!

    great entry buttons!!

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  16. Everyone needs to invest in alone time. It is time well spent.

    I would suggest you take a whistle on a string on all future outings. Even the most experienced outdoor's person would agree, it's a wise thing to do.

    Peace to you, B!

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  17. Thank you for letting us tag along on your trip to the bush today! I'm glad you had some rain and were able to find a little peace and quiet! :)

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  18. you're so eloquent. i always feel like i'm walking right there beside you.

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  19. Quiet moments are so very important!

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  20. Oh it sounds so peaceful and lovely - I wish I could just sit quietly beside you to drink it all in.
    Enjoy your 'me' time!!!

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  21. Perhaps today was the day the forest chose to sing to you it happens occasionally.

    I so enjoy losing myself, if only for a moment, in your writing; I always find myself refreshed. Thank you.

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  22. It's so good to spend time with yourself in nature. It is obvious to me that you NEED this, something you must do for yourself often.

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The mind grows by what it feeds on. J.G. Holland

Thank you so much for your comments, they mean more to me then I could ever express. Hug B

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