Tuesday, October 23, 2012

That Ever-Changing Goal!

In philosophy, it is not the attainment of the goal that matters,
it is the things that are met with by the way.
                                Havelock Ellis


Sitting on my nice soft dark green moss covered rock which now has a beautiful downed century sugar maple branch sitting on it, I ask myself what draws me back to this exact same spot every time. I do not have to think very hard, it is truly an easy question. Peace and contentment, something I can always count on. I like to call it my soul searching rock. It has always provided me with the answers I seek and given me the strength to believe.

 It is always going to be here even though the surroundings will be changing repeatedly; unpredictable such as the branch falling or predictable like the leaves will change colour and then fall, the ground will then be a colourful mix of bright colours fading to brown then soon to be covered in a blanket of white. The rains will come in the spring thaw and flood the valley below and cover everything with mud and floating decaying leaves. Everything will be starting anew, the green grass will sprout, the buds will burst from the trees and those birds will always sing, and I will still be seen sitting on my rock in all of those above situations, contented. This is my rock and my ridge. My goal is to keep getting back here no matter how hard or long it may take me, or I must say by any means of transportation if need be.


I do sometimes wish everything was a predictable as my spot on this old rock.

I sit here today and watch those leaves flutter to the ground and listen to a woodpecker hammering a tree loudly somewhere off in the distance, a blue jay squawking about something, maybe telling the woodpecker to be quiet. I ponder over how I am going to make it back to the house, I know I will but I am wondering how long I will have to sit here and endure this peace and contentment and avoid that vacuum cleaner sitting up there in the middle of my living room floor. I smile thinking this is a terrible place to be stuck.


I pull myself up after what seems a very long time and start the long walk back to the house. I bid goodbye to my rock and wander through the trees which will probably be stripped of their leaves and shivering in the snow next time I see them. I try to take in all the special treasures that nature has left scattered about, a feasting for my eyes. It is truly the journey and enjoying the things along the way and not the goal that matters.

The sun shines through the trees and illuminates those fallen leaves on the ground as if to say I am still beautiful even though I am no longer high in the tree I am still beautiful, please see me. My eyes follow the single ray of the sun to the treetops and watch the leaves of gold still holding on screaming look at us we are beautiful too but we are afraid to lie on the ground only to be trampled and forgotten. Don’t worry little leaves I notice your beauty and will continue to do so no matter where you may end up; be that desperately clinging to the tree during those winter storms or covered in mud lying on that cold ground. I will always notice.


I wander slowly feasting my eyes at the beauty that will soon be changed into a different beauty very shortly. I take my time and stop when I have to just to attain my self-imposed goal. I am going to make it and I know that it may take a little longer.

I make it to the house only to be greeted by the vacuum in the middle of the living room floor. Knowing now I can do anything I put my mind to; I plug it in and vacuum the whole house. I am successful; I lie down for that well deserved nap.

Two hours later and hearing the sound of My Hero walking through the door I run, OK maybe hobble over to say; Guess what I did today? He gives me a hug and I hold on tight. Now with that particular goal accomplished, bring on the next one.

Later

This photo may not have anything to do with the story but I know it will make someone very happy on what may be a sad day. Be happy. Meet Mr. Jones. Love you BA. {{HUGS}}

35 comments:

  1. What a great place to gather your thoughts and feel tranquil. Loved reading your thoughts about the fallen leaves--could so relate to that. Glad you had a good day! Hope you have another good one ahead. :)

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  2. You bring a sense of peace to us all. Thank you for sharing your gift.

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  3. Oh, I love the sun shining on those autumn leaves.

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  4. At least you know that if you DID get stuck out on your rock, your Hero would know where to look for you! ;))

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  5. Congrats on enjoying that rock of yours! I bet it knows you by name :-)

    Sweet kitty!

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  6. I'd much rather be "stuck" on a rock than inside with my vacuum cleaner any day! I'll be your Hero has a few tricks up his sleeve to help you continue your treks when the going gets tough! :)

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  7. You have a lovely place in which to sit and think and feel the earth turning underneath you. And didn't everything smell wonderful in the autumn sunshine. I love the smell of the leaves underfoot.

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  8. So far so good. Thought alot about our conversation yesterday and today is going to be a good day. Like your Dad, my Mom knew I loved the rain so how can I be sad when she has sent me such a gift. Just wish I could hike to your rock and sit under a big umbrella with you and talk, talk, talk.

    Love You, BA

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  9. Your rock sounds as special as it is! So glad you enjoyed your time there and got safely home! Love that you share your writings with us Buttons!
    Rain :)

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  10. I fully understand how you feel.

    It is so great to be out there.

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  11. you have so much strength inside that little body and head of yours. i so admire you.

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  12. I love your writing and hope this will become a book someday. I read your earlier post too and I admire you so much walking through the pain to this beautiful spot. I have a spot here too, not so far to walk though. I don't have the pains that you do, but I have found that no matter how I feel, if I get up every morning and put a smile on my face, take the dogs for their walks, do my morning chores outside, and then do some more, take some pictures, write a post for my blog, I will be happy and content for the rest of the day.

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  13. This is a wonderful meditation on change: the weather changes, the leaves change, each person changes. Yet, we can, if we will, be content and beautiful.

    Blessings to you, Beautiful!

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  14. Your posts are so real! I enjoy them so much.

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  15. I have a place like your rock.

    I go when I can and it always renews, recenters, and refreshes me.

    We should both try and go more often.

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  16. I too have a place like your rock.....the shower....I can solve all the worlds problems in the shower!!

    Gill

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  17. Moving, beautiful post, Buttons! God bless every endeavor!

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  18. I too find the peace through The forest, bush.The singing of birds as I walked.

    Love your pictures.Speaks words as well as written words.

    I took pictures and added them in my blog this Tuesday.

    Much similar to yours I now see.

    Wonderful how so many minds think

    alot.

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  19. Oh I loved the seeds caught in the leaves and the cat's expression. Nice photos! Real nice!

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  20. Lovely, as always! I enjoy reading your posts so much. Sounds like you had a full day. Good thing you had time for a nap!

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  21. b, I enjoy your posts so much..blessings@peace of mind

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  22. My Granny once told me that we each have a special spot on the earth. A place to stand (or sit) which connects to our soul and allows us to think those deep slow thoughts. The thoughts which lift us beyond the merely human to touch the stars and, briefly, brush against angel's wings.

    You have your spot. We, your lucky readers, get to enjoy the benefits of the deep and enduring thoughts you think while there.

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  23. Oh Buttons
    Lovely colors and fantastic photos.
    Wonderful autumn and a very interesting text.
    I send greetings.

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  24. Lovely post and photos ! I always take time to sit and enjoy nature it is one of those things I will never give up and besides cleaning will always be there no matter what , life is to simply enjoy !

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  25. What a specaial place you have to enjoy. I really need to take more time to enjoy nature and all it's splendor.

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  26. No matter what our struggles it is wonderful to find contentment in whatever shape or from it may take. Contentment is that much sweeter when we remember the times that it eluded us.

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  27. You write things I feel but don't know how to say. Thanks.

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  28. a soul searching rock and a peaceful place. i am so happy you have those things!!

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  29. Well hello there Buttons girl !
    Mr. Jones has made me smile .. he loves springs as my girls do too!
    That rock in the forest is absolutely wonderful : ) I would sit there too and ponder so many aspects of life .. taking in every bit of nature around me that I could .. burn it in my memory to set a picture in my mind at night to relax with .. truly beautiful!!
    Thank you for visiting my blog with your comments .. I appreciate it: )
    I have to take more time to visit blogs myself .. I really enjoyed seeing this post with the gorgeous pictures .. it reminded me of my times as a child in the forest .. happy to be on my own just loving the woods the way I did and still do !
    Joy

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  30. What a beautiful place to just sit and gather your thoughts. I could almost imagine myself sitting next to you.
    Beautiful pictures as usual :)

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  31. Another lovely post Buttons! We should all have a place like your rock and take the time to visit it often to enjoy the peace and beauty that is all around us!! {{HUGS}}

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  32. Why might it be a sad day, Buttons? Who did Mr. Jones belong to? Who is BA? And what happened to BA?

    Your goals are good. It doesn't matter how long it takes you to get there, or to get back, or how quickly or slowly you do it. It's not a race. Nobody has you on the clock. All that matters are the moments of beauty during the trip, no matter how many times you stop to catch your breath or rest along the way:)

    ((HUGS))

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  33. It is kind of like going to my sister's. It is a five hour drive there and five hours back. Still it is the middle that makes it worth a long drive. It is the middle that gives me joy. I'm with you it makes all the yucky stuff worthwhile.

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  34. Everyone needs a place to ponder things... where we have time/space/quiet to 'hear' God and our own soul...

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  35. What beautiful peaceful writing. And your last picture did, indeed, induce a smile.

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