Friday, October 19, 2012

The Simple Things and Being Happy!

Peace is happiness digesting.
                      Victor Hugo 


 It was Wednesday October 17th the day I should have been sad, the day five years ago I watched my Father go to a wonderful place of no pain after fighting cancer. The day; that I should still be angry at the factory that left the asbestos falling to the floor only to be swept up by a man just trying to earn a pay cheque to support his family. The day; where I should hate the tobacco companies that made something so addictive that people could never give it up and even when they finally did it was too late. The day; of a deep sadness and soundless anger.

I have finally broken free from those feelings and am happy. Finally the day that even though I will never forget my Dad and will remember this day forever, I am finally at the stage in my life where I can think back and not cry and ask “Why.” I know I am here to make myself and hopefully others happy and not to be burdened by those crippling feelings. I am truly happy, there will be no tears shed today and I have to give credit to the simple things in my life and those special people who have gotten me to this point.


First I am so happy to be in a world where people can come together to send love and support to someone they may not really know but love regardless. Bloggers and non-bloggers joining in to cheer a beautiful young woman and her family on while they battle something no one should ever have to deal with. I truly love my blogger family they are the most generous caring people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing and as of yet not met.

I am so happy to be surrounded by a world of such beauty that I have this overwhelming urge to jump out to photograph something so beautiful and try to preserve and share it before it disappears even though running late.

I am happy for old friends who even though they are now in a nursing home they still smile and hug you like you live right next door. They share stories of long ago and those memories of things you had forgotten. They do not talk of their struggles and you in turn do the same. You just enjoy each other’s company and laugh and joke about the things that are good in this world while not worrying what tomorrow may bring. You hug each other and promise to come back soon and you both smile.


I was even happy when the man at the grocery store handed me a yogurt and said you look like the kind of girl that would enjoy this flavour. I smile and look down to see it is Lime flavoured and I have no idea what he meant by that statement but I laughed out loud.

Happy thoughts filled my mind when bumping into an old friend and remembering all the good times you shared long ago, getting reacquainted, and sharing happy news and stories about the lives you have now, and looking forward to more of those times to get reacquainted.

I am happy for finding the people that I can hug when I need to and they hug me back and we always know when those hugs are needed. I am happy for friends that when I drop in at strange times of the day without warning to check on them and maybe get a hug they still let me in and listen. I am happy for those conversations we have that keep me thinking and knowing someone else feels just like me.


I am happy for the phone line that always seems to have someone at the other end that cares about me and listens and somehow always knows when I need that call even if I sometimes do not.

I am happy for sisters and a brother who love me and are not afraid to text it, and especially that sister that text me “If you are sitting in the house alone and all sad I am going to kick your butt.” That means love.

Yes I am happy and I know my Dad would not have wanted anything different. I did not cry I smiled and laughed all day.

I did it Dad.

Later

47 comments:

  1. My Blessings to you, luv.

    Indeed, you did exactly what we all wish to do-say farewell 'till we meet again, with love, courage and grace.

    Would that we all be this blessed.

    You are loved.
    So very glad we met......

    *hugs and love*

    Mimi

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  2. Não faltam momentos pra nos entristecer, mas há tantos e tantos para nos alegrar. Que bom que pensas assim também! beijos,do Brasil,chica

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  3. What a fantastic dedication to the wonderful man that helped make you the kind and caring person you are.

    May extra blessings come your way. I'm sending a hug...hope you catch it!

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  4. I'm so glad you were able to put the negative thoughts aside. While you had a right to those feelings, it's better for us not to hold on to that anger. The hardest thing is figuring out how to let it go. I'm still working on that in one situation in my own life.

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  5. Lovely what you wrote :) You have come a long way. I am extremely proud of you :) my dear friend..M xoxox

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  6. This is so beautiful and oh so very true. I'm sending you the biggest hug ever!

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  7. a beautiful entry!!

    ya know b, people will ofter forget the words you spoke but they will never forget the way you made them feel...it's so true!!

    i love that simple, beautiful leaf, with it's pretty little shadow!

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  8. A lovely tribute to your father. A big hug to you. Buttons.

    As for being the kind of gal who would enjoy a lime yogurt, I have to laugh, too. I once had a Russian man approach me in a thrift store because he was sure I was the kind of woman who would enjoy a certain shoe he had found. He was right, and I still smile thinking about that. :-)

    Love from Minneapolis,

    Pearl

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  9. Awww, beautiful post. I'm sure it was hard to get over your anger of your father's passing, but I'm glad you worked through it. I'm sure he is, too :)

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  10. I'm happy to be in a world that includes sweet people like Leontien and like YOU!

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  11. You remind me that it is as easy to be happy as it is easy to be sad. Thank you for bringing to my attention what makes life meaningful - a focus on where joy is no matter what one is facing.
    ((hugs))

    *and love to Leontien*

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  12. I'm happy for you, Buttons! I'm glad your heart is healing. :)

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  13. Hello Buttons !!!!!
    I am charmed by your fantastic dedication.
    It is beautiful.

    I am very happy that you visited my blog.
    I hope that there will be a one-time visit.
    Have a great weekend!
    Lucja

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  14. just loved the lime yogurt and the text from your sister. loved...

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  15. So beautiful. I am very sorry for your loss, but it sounds as though you are coming to a place of acceptance and healing. That's huge! HUGS!!!!

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  16. Hugs, Buttons! I'm glad that your heart is starting to heal, and happy memories are taking the place of so much pain. Your father sounds like a wonderful man:)
    I love this post too because it's a such a sweet reminder of how good people are-in spite of so much negativity in the world, I still think we basically want to be kind to one another:)
    Have a lovely weekend!

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  17. Am totally with you in spirit if not in body. My father passed 25 years back when I was young. You never forget, you always love and to shed a tear is only a sign of your love. Mr M.

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  18. Glad you had a good day- of course there is sadness...it will only be muted as time goes on, but never forgotten. Blessings!

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  19. Such a beautiful post and so full of inspiration and hope for those who are still struggling to get through the anger and hurt that life brings. I'm so glad you have been able to let the clouds part and feel the sunshine, even on that day. Hugs!

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  20. This is a beautiful post Buttons. I understand what your are saying and I know your dad would be so proud of you!

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  21. B i love reading your blog. and i love when you leave me words of inspiration. losing our parent to cancer is a journey that stays with us. and i struggled as you for a long time, but time and those that love us help us to the next stage. and our blogging family is truely amazing in all they do for us even though they may not know it. <3 to you!

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  22. So happy you are at peace. It takes awhile doesn't it.

    I miss my Dad, but he was tired of living and ready to be with my Mom.

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  23. Amen to all of this ! I like yourself have also gone through this with my father and felt the same way . Bloggers are amazing and feel like they are a huge extended family to me . I am glad you are feeling better . Lovely photos !

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  24. you are an inspiration, my friend. To be able to let go and anger, angst, and sorrow and to know your dad shines like a bright star... is a lesson to us all.

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  25. What a beautiful way to look at life. Aren't we blessed!

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  26. B...I am happy you are happy. I have never had the anger but just such an overwhelming sadness still...hoping I can get to where you are one day...xoxo

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  27. Bless you in your thoughtful musings and coming to an understanding of what is and what should be...And bless you for sharing such wonders with us all.

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  28. Thank you for your positive attitude. A life is something that should be celebrated. I am sure your father was a gem. I'm proud to know you.

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  29. You've got it right Buttons...love the way you think and care for your family.

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  30. What a great post. Good for you! I always say you can help others when you've experienced something yourself. I'm sure you'll be able to comfort others going through their hard times too. Congratulations. BTW, Me thinks your Father is protecting you from those bears!

    Cindy Bee

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  31. Some day I hope we can meet in person...but until then, here's a cyber ((hug)) for you Buttons! So glad you choose to be happy! :)

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  32. What a wonderful post. I went thru exactly the same process after my 27 year old son sucumned to the effect of bi-polar disease....

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  33. what a powerful piece!
    this is so beautiful and so very true as well.
    thank you for this inspiring post and for the good reminder too.

    i am so glad you choose to be happy, buttons!

    happy weekend~

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  34. Impressed me your post.
    Monika B.

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  35. Death is just another part of life and the memories created during life are what sustain us after a death.

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  36. Beautiful post.... finding beauty and joy and letting it fill our hearts and every fibre of our being is what we are called to do as children of light. It always conquers the darkness.

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  37. You are the only one that picked up on the age 39! hahahaha.

    We had a nice day. It was beautiful weather and I'll post them on Monday!

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  38. I think that when a person is as kind and thoughtful as you are, it must reflect back to you and make you happy. I know life is not always easy, there are losses, pain, and you are right, young people like Leontien, who should not have to go through what she's going through. But if you care like you do, happiness will find you. At least that's what I believe. Thanks for your support with Samson.

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  39. Thank you for the kind words. I cannot help but wonder if it wasn't the pollution from the DuPont plant where my sister's husband was an engineer triggered her cancer. She lost her battle but her daughter, my niece, has conquered two times. I am so glad you have finally come to terms with the sadness and can finally look back at all of the happiness. Sometimes that is hard to do as I know so well. Take care and know you are loved by many. genie

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  40. Buttons,
    I love reading your blog. I rejoice that you are so blessed. May the Lord bless you more!

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  41. I am sure your Dad is looking down so happy that you are at peace and happy. What a wonderful post.

    Hugs~

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  42. i feel blessed for listening to you share this happiness. xo...

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  43. Oh Buttons,
    I love this beautiful heartfelt post so much. Human connections are so powerful isn't it? A kind word or a warm hug can make one feel so much better.
    I love that you are expressing gratitude for these beautiful interactions. I find that when I offer heartfelt thanks for the things that I have, my life seems to mystically move forward.
    Your dad must be so so proud of you. You inspire people with your blog.
    xoxoxo

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  44. It gets easier with time for me. I have so much of both of my parents in me it is scary because I see so many others who didn't have the same quality love I did.

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