Monday, November 19, 2012

Photo Addiction!

We trifle when we assign limits to our desires, since nature has none.
                                            Christian Nestell Bovee


On Friday morning I had this bright idea, I would put my camera away and try not to take it out for a week and blog about that experience; a week without pictures, I was going to go cold turkey.  I thought this would be a good idea since with this digital technology I have thousands (I bet you do not believe me but sadly this is true) of photos stored on memory cards. I knew I have always had an addiction. I was pretty sure I could do it and was up for the challenge.

To understand how hard this was going to be for me, I am going to have to tell you a little about myself and that incredible rush I had the first time, and every other time thereafter, when I picked up my old 35mm Praktica camera, it was not a fancy camera but it was all I could afford while working as a cashier at a fast food joint. I dragged that camera everywhere; I also dragged my little sister M who was almost ten around and we would have photo shoots by the water and anywhere my moods and my imagination took me.

 I taught myself how to use this camera and then after saving some money I took some night school courses when I was in my twenties. I instantly fell in love with black and white photography and learned how to process my own images; it was very exciting but also very expensive. I would take photos of my sister M and my nieces and nephews and any one that I could talk into posing for me. I loved working in the dark room. I was never without a camera after that.

 I never did fulfill that dream of my own darkroom and gave most of those photographs to the loved ones I made pose for me. Eventually like everyone since the beginning of time, life got in the way and so I bought a little point and shoot camera requiring less fidgeting with settings. I went through rolls of film, not really worrying about what I had, most of it I have never developed even though I have always vowed I will. It is still not too late I suppose.

We moved into the old farmhouse and if you have read The Journey posts you would know we never had any money and being miserable most of the time I did not have the heart or desire to photograph anything. I do not have very many photos of those four years. I do regret this as it was a very important time in our lives and I have nothing to remind myself or my family of our challenges and our successes, I only have those memories that I have stored in my mind and try to write them down without photographs to trigger those events.


I eventually bought another 35mm camera, a Canon and tried to get back into photography when we moved into this new farmhouse but could never find the time, and we never really had the money to develop the film. I bought another easy point and shoot and grabbed photos when I could always feeling this need to take photos and capture what I seen as to not forget those moments.

Well today I own a digital point and shoot but with settings I love; it is light and durable and has been with me for almost two years. We have been through thick and thin, snow and mud, rain and ice and it has always captured what I wanted it to. I love my little Canon camera. I have never left the house without it; it is like an important extension of me.

Today I set it on the kitchen counter, I shut and locked the door and left the house, while all the time muttering under my breath; I can do this.
I hopped into my Jeep but felt completely naked, I ran back to that door, I unlocked it and I grabbed that little camera and slipped it gently into my pocket. 

I pulled that door shut and that camera and I travelled to those familiar rocky shores after first stopping to pick up my sister M. The same sister I had picked up over almost forty years ago to go on those photo shoots. I told her what I had tried to do. She laughed.


I pulled my little camera out of my pocket as she was saying “You will never to be able to break that addiction”. I knew she was absolutely right, and she once again posed by the ducks and the geese with the pristine blue waters and those rocky shores. Hey! Where you going? Some things do change.


Happy Birthday M. You still got it.

Later

29 comments:

  1. I know the feeling. Even when I don't have a camera, I take photos with my eyes. "That would make a good shot." I say to whoever may be nearby.

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  2. Photography certainly does change the way you think about things. Is it good or bad? Not sure -- but I think it's prolly good. :)

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  3. I even keep a tiny camera in my purse - just in case I'm out without my good camera and need to take a picture. LOL. Hope you survive the week ;-)

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  4. I have a good camera a Canon, but am no photographer. I enjoy posting photos on my blog though.

    Gill

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  5. You without your camera is not even in the realm of possibility, lol. Your photos are part of what makes you, you.
    Glad that you and M were able to relive a childhood memory.

    Love You, BA

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  6. Oddly enough I was musing along much the same lines in my post this morning... love that shot of your sis...

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  7. Photography may be an addiction, Miss B, but remember it is also an experience. Photography makes you appreciate the magnificence around you and be more observant and thankful for all that God has provided.

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  8. A camera addiction is a pretty harmless thing.

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  9. Oh my, I can't imagine you without a camera! Wouldn't it be fun to see all of those pictures that you've never developed?! I can imagine the blog posts that would come out of them!

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  10. I missed the dark room which I was not afford of by that time.

    Even though I might have my own "M" too.

    Happy birthday to you, M.

    You must have been a good fan of Button's photography for a few decades.

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  11. It's one of the best kinds of addiction :D)

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  12. far worse addictions exist. and especially now in the digital age, it doesn't cost a thing to indulge once you have the equipment. :)

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  13. Of all the kinds of addictions there are this is one to be fostered, not given up.

    I hope you never stop letting us see through your eyes!

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  14. You do not need to give up your camera or passion to photograph the beauty around you! I, for one, love your pictures and would miss seeing them!
    xo

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  15. There could be a worse addiction for you to have! Why would you deprive yourself of such a wonderful hobby? You are so good at it. Keep capturing and writing and sharing. You never know who you will touch with your words and photos. :)

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  16. Well thank goodness you ran back to get your camera. What were you thinking???..... Some addictions are good.

    I love a digital camera. If I mess up lots of pictures, Who cares, there is always the next one and it doesn't cost me an arm and a leg.

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  17. you're so funny sweet B! I almost believed you would go through with your idea, so the kitchen scene made me laugh. I'm glad you didn't anyway, I love your eye :) happy Monday! xxo

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  18. Taking photos with a digital camera is so inexpensive and tons of fun. Don't ever consider giving it up, Buttons! It's so good for your soul.

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  19. So funny! I got a new camera this past summer and it rarely leaves my side! I am in love with it!

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  20. I have the same addiction...I'll bet you already figured that out! Can't think of one reason to go cold turkey.

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  21. Don't do it! Keep clicking! I'm not very happy with my little Nikon. I might have to take it back, it desn't work very well; won't retract the lens let alone shutter all the way when I turn it off, and sometimes won't turn on- even with the battery fully charged. Gah!

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  22. Just say no to putting the camera away!

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  23. I love your photos Buttons! Please keep taking them.

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  24. Heh, heh. If the day ever comes that they have to put Buttons in a coffin they better put the camera in there with her. Wherever you are I love the pictures you send back.

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  25. I'm glad you went back for your camera and tell your sister Happy Birthday from me too! :)

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  26. Interesting challenge.
    I have lots of pix of our home in progress. I just don't share the ugly ones. ;) It's still pretty bad in certain rooms here.

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  27. that's scary. i don't think i could do it. too torturous!

    i got my first 35mm as a gift when i was like 20...(minolta) and have loved taking pic's ever since. had thought about learning the dark room thing...but never did. never took photo classes...but did think about that too! yeah, i think a lot! ha.

    taking pic's is too good an addiction to quit...for a WEEK?!!

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  28. never stop, buttons! our house (built 1950) has a root cellar. our first thought when we saw it was "darkroom!" but there's no plumbing in there. hubster has since given away all our trays and chemicals. our digital age has simply made things too easy. maybe in our retirement. ;)

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