individual and social, as well as with the hopes and ideals of the age in which we live.
|Before the snow!|
It is so quiet here; I stare out the window and watch the snow falling on the tractor as My Hero drives down the lane heading to feed the cows. My world is covered in a thick blanket of snow, I am fighting the overwhelming urge to jump into my warm clothes grab my snowshoes and make my way down the long laneway to the bush to immerse myself in all the beauty that I have been missing lately.
It has been a very busy few days and I enjoyed every minute of it. The laughing, the hugging, and especially the noise, it is so quiet here this morning. I am already missing my two girl’s chatting in those early mornings, sitting around the kitchen table looking out the window and talking. We talked about our daily lives and how lucky we are after going through a year filled with every possible emotion. Experiencing those incredible highs and the terrible lows from events and circumstances of which we had no control. We talked about how we made it through and anxiously await and are ready for the New Year and what it may bring.
I watch as one very brave Red Squirrel stands in the cold with his fuzzy warm multi-coloured jacket on tucked under the Black Walnut tree away from the blowing snow, with a nut in his mouth watching me, watching him. I wonder what he is thinking, I know I am thinking why did we ever plant Black Walnut trees so close to the house? We have been overrun with all different varieties of Squirrels, red ones, gray ones, black ones and I think I seen a purple one, OK that was in my dream but you get the idea. There is a trail running from the trees to the Chicken Coop, it has been so well used it looks like one of the Deer runs in the bush I tend to follow. I wonder what he is thinking as he sits on his back legs his little hands held high and this huge Black Walnut in his mouth; he finally scampers across the snow and slips through the crack in the foundation. I must admit I do enjoy watching them, they make me smile.
Tomorrow the New Year will be upon us, and it is going to be a great one I just know it. I have learned so much this past year. I realized just how strong I am and that there is nothing I cannot face head on. I am tougher than I had ever realized. I have cried uncontrollably, I have laughed uncontrollably and I have conquered, or at least came to terms with an invisible illness that will be part of me but will not stop me from experiencing all this life has to offer. “Life is what YOU make it”, I love that line and I am going to prove it to be true.
|Believing I can accomplish new things!|
My greatest strengths of the year have come from knowing, and listening to stories from my Blogger family; they come from all walks of life and from every continent, they have been through things I could never imagine. The strength they share, the compassion, and their love for mankind has amazed me. The world is smaller now as we all walk in this technological world together, sharing all our highs and lows. It is very comforting knowing there is someone you may, or may not meet walking along the same path with you. I love my Blogger family and they have taught me many things; most of all that I can always count on them sharing their highs and their lows, and I do hope they know they can count on me to share my experiences in this sometimes crazy world. Bloggers always sharing, hoping their experiences will help someone else know they are not alone in their feelings and that someone has been there, or will be in the same or a similar predicament someday, and made it or will make it through. I know I have found tremendous strength and confidence in this Blogging world and I am sure many others have too. I truly want to thank all of you for that.
I do wish everyone all the best in 2013. It is going to be a great year for us all. I watch the snow falling covering my world with a snowy white newness, knowing this is going to be a tremendous year, we just have to continue to love each other and share that love and know that the world is so very small and we are all in this together. The little things, even if you do not know it may just be the thing that will get you through. A silly Squirrel with a nut in his mouth staring at you through a window may be all you need. One step at a time.
I think I will be slipping on those snowshoes now and getting outside surrounding myself with this big beautiful snowy world, even if I can only get half way to the bush I will be doing it. There is nothing I cannot do if I really want and need too. There will be no New Year’s resolutions for me but one thing I will try never to say this year is “I can’t”. I truly believe because of all of you that there is nothing that is impossible and I am going to try my best to prove it to myself and others.
Happy New Year to all of you. Thank you to my family and friends who have always supported and believed in me. 2013 is going to be great.