Monday, December 3, 2012

Do It!

We in vain summon the mind to intense application,
when the body is in a languid state.
                        Gaius Cornelius Gallus


Today was the day, after three days of only leaving the house to feed the cows and then rushing back in, I knew I had to do this? I dressed in layer upon layer, I threw wood in the woodstove, and I grabbed my backpack with pen, paper, and my camera. I slapped together a peanut butter sandwich, and pulled on my hikers with that sandwich gripped tightly in my teeth and hanging from my mouth I then opened the door, hopefully breaking the self-tethered shackles of “Poor me” It is 8 A.M.

A blast of Canadian Arctic air fills my nostrils, burns my cheeks and takes my breath away. I think to myself, I should just shut that door, peel off those layers and hikers and climb back into that warm bed that I have found so very hard to drag myself out of lately.

I give my head a shake “Do it” I slam the door locking the wind and myself out with no excuse to back down now. I pull the hood of my bright orange windbreaker over my toque and pull out one bright red fuzzy glove from my pocket. A glove I had found in a pile of discarded and forgotten winter wear from last winter. With my exposed hand holding my sandwich I fumble with the chain hanging from the gate and I head down the long wide exposed to the blustery wind laneway heading to the bush. I have to do this no matter what.


I walk quickly with my camera safely buried deep in my pocket, eating my now frozen and hard sandwich quickly so I could put on that other bright red fuzzy glove waiting in my pocket. I hold the hand protected with the red fuzzy glove to my cheek to stop that sting of the biting wind. With every hurried step I can hear the crunching sound of the frozen black earth under my hikers. I step inside the bush the last bite of my sandwich now gone. While trying to climb a rock and get my other glove on it falls and lands on an old tangled branch, loving the contrast I dig my camera from its snug, warm spot deep in my inner pocket, I know exactly how it must feel; I snap some photos then send it back to its warmth. I think to myself I am a long way from the comfort of my bed.

The massive towering Pine trees that surround me block those biting Arctic winds; I look over to the once fast flowing creek now reduced to a water starved trickle. I see a flash of bright white run across the branches lying in the creek. I walk quickly over to see what it was; I stand on a rock on the one side of the dry creek bed and stare over to the rocks on the other side. I wait and I wait.  A snowy white creature, with piercing black eyes and a black nose pops out from under an exposed tree root. It climbs onto a rock and stares at me as I stare at it. In the middle of the dull greys, and browns on a very gloomy overcast day was a pure white creature standing and staring at me without a worry about what I was going to do. I stood there for a bit wondering why it was not running away and what this meant. I fumble my camera again from the warmth of my pocket; it does not seem to mind my slow movements. I aim at the little snowy white creature and carefully snap while trying not to drop my camera, wearing those red fuzzy gloves.


 This beautiful white weasel allowed me one photo then turned and darted across the curled dead leaves mixed with fallen brown pine needles heading into the prickly ash bushes. I watched as it moved swiftly and eventually out of sight.

This is why I had to come. This was a sign to remind me there is always brightness and light to be found among those dull greys and browns. I needed to get out of the house and battle the cold and wind to see that.
There is always going to be grey days, brown days, and possibly very dark days but if you never give up you will get back to those brighter days. You may just have to put on layers and go out and conquer those obstacles to find it but it will be there waiting.


As for now, I think I will sit here on this stump surrounded by these towering pines for a little while and see if it comes back. I do wish I had of worn a couple more layers, or at least brought my blanket. See you tomorrow.

Later

35 comments:

  1. ....... excellent post! I felt like I was right there with you! So glad you made yourself go.
    And that HEART in the ICE just takes my breath away!
    WOW!

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  2. Kudos to you for making yourself leave the house, Buttons. The white weasel seems like a positive omen to me. This time of year we can use any positive sign to lift our spirits, don't you think? ;))

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  3. Oh WOW! I can't believe you captured that white weasel! Isn't he (she?) stunning? You were meant to be there, right at that moment, camera in hand!

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  4. Oh, I love this post! That weasel is so cute! Such a great reminder, like you said, that you can always get back to those brighter days :)

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  5. I'm glad you made the effort to get outside. It's always worth it.

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  6. Good for you. When it got cold I went out ( for a walk) one day only. The rest of the time I complained that the house was too cold!

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  7. One reason why I walk before breakfast! I am still too much asleep to question what I am doing. I love that heart in the ice, and the capture of the branch wearing your glove!

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  8. That weasel is adorable. Glad that you braved the frosty day Buttons. It's interesting isn't it, how nature always brings us something worth seeing, that gladdens our hearts at the same time, or touches our souls.

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  9. I'll bet you felt a lot better when you got back to your house and that woodstove!

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  10. great post! so vivid. here is cold to and I'm getting ready to go outside and feel the wind on my face once more. how I wish I was in bed! xxo sweet B :)

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  11. That twisted tree in your last shot looks so spooky tome. Like it is out of a creepy movie. I love it. Good for you getting out in that cold weather to get some photo. Hummm.. Maybe I should do the same.

    Hugs~

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  12. Love the contrast of the red glove on the tree. I really felt I was with you and could feel the cold biting. Thanks for visiting me today I am bundled up in front of my computer FM not too bad today ....

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  13. I'm glad you got out there again! I've never seen a weasel...how nice that he posed for you! Hope your day is brighter today!

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  14. BIG APPLAUSE for BUTTONS!!!

    Hugs fr Auntie M.

    Brave too! Brrrr cold.

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  15. I adore that heart in the ice, and the weasel is special. I love to go out in the winter woods and discover what's there. A lovely post.

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  16. A great post Buttons! Your words are so descriptive that I feel as if I am walking beside you!

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  17. Glad you're back in front of the fire, that's the most sensible place to be :)
    Janie x

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  18. what a sweet little gift the ermine gave you that day! hard to imagine the bitter cold. we have hit 81 F the past 2 days and expected to again today (as i sit here in tshirt and shorts)

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  19. Isn't it wonderful how sharing just a brief moment with a wild creature can lift our hearts?

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  20. What a stunning creature! I would have loved to share that experience with you and lucky me I got to because you captured it for us. :)

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  21. Of course, Tex beat me to the ermine mention. Lol. And I was so proud of myself for remembering.

    I can totally relate to your mood, B, but mine has little to do with the weather. I am proud of you for getting out and exploring. xo

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  22. You are such an inspiration! You are right, we have to pull on our boots and make our way out of the darkness and gloom. My mom always told me you have to have darkness to see the stars..
    Great post! Love the little weasel and the frozen heart!
    Stay warm and send a little chill down here, it is 86 degrees in Central Texas..ugh!
    xo

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  23. Wonderful post and photos ! It has been a damp cold here in southwestern Ontario and I have been aching like crazy but I do the same layer up and get out with my camera and take my Miggs for a nice walk ! Gota keep going so much out there in the woods and country side . Have a good day !

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  24. okay, except for your little white weasel woodsy angel, i did not thoroughly enjoy your very descriptive right-on-target writing skills...

    but then I just got home from spending three days in the woods on top of mountain in freezing temps with high winds dodging swaying trees finishing up the last of the forest service work for the year. My face looks like i had one of those expensive facial peels...without the nice robe and comfy lounge bed they supposedly give you.

    but I do have a good suggestion on how you too can be just as warm as an old Norwegian bachelor dairy farmer, Buttons - boy's snow bibs. Yes, i wear these because they are warm and cheap, but please always remind me to NOT take them off in public because I do not wear pants underneath just like the good old Norwegian bachelor Dairy Farmer wannabe that i am - snow bibs keep you really warm...I find myself after i come in to be wearing them for a while because they are soo stinkin' comfortable...

    and one last thought to any single ladies who might read the above comment - there is always a real GOOD reason why they are OLD bachelors ;)

    now excuse me - someone sent me the most incredible baby hereford photos ever and I need to go whimper and "ahhh" after them again - they are the most adorable critters ever!!! the blonde curly heads with pink noses just slay me!!! :D

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  25. You determination to keep going is so inspirational! I enjoyed your story so much. And what a gift those photos are, to us as well as to you. The little weasel is adorable--I had no idea--I thought it was a mouse. Keep going, Buttons! You are a strong and amazing person.

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  26. What a wonderful little white critter! I'm sooo glad you were able to get a photo and share it with us! I really like the picture of your fuzzy red glove too!
    Try and keep warm. We are in the same boat as TexWisGirl, way too hot and dry for this time of year.

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  27. I have never seen a white weasel before, I wonder if its in its Winter colours?

    Gill

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  28. I you hadn't have gone out in the ice conditions you wouldn't have seen the creature or been able to share that with us....good on you..best wishes my dear friend...M xoxoxo

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  29. A force greater then you and I nudged you out the door today! What a great post, that heart in the ice just proves you were suppose to be there!

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  30. wow Button, that weasel is amazing!

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  31. Good for you for forcing yourself to get out and do what you love. Keep it up, but next time eat before you go. That pb sand might attract bears! That weasel is adorable. I'm so glad you got a picture of it.
    Cindy Bee

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  32. Imagine seeing a beautiful creature like that on your walk. You were really blessed with a great experience.

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  33. Fantastic shot! What a thrill that you were there in that moment.

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  34. What a wonderfully hopeful post to come back to Buttons! The white weasel is absolutely amazing. Yes, brighter days are always ahead.

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