Monday, January 7, 2013

Normal!

The object of reflection is invariably the discovery of something
satisfying to the mind which was not there
at the beginning of the search.
                            Earnest Dimnet


Even as I write this I have no idea what my “normal” will be this year. 2012 had been a year full of obstacles and surprises. This year is already showing some signs that it will be just as challenging. I do believe that every event in our lives, good or bad has something to teach us. Most times we will not understand that lesson right away and at least with me when I think back I was not ready to acknowledge it as a lesson, and most times I was not ready to deal with it at all. I have honestly been trying to figure out what some of the events were meant to teach me from this year and years past. I am sure in time I will understand, at least I hope so. In the mean time I will keep doing what I need to do after enjoying two weeks of relaxing times thanks to My Hero being home but now going back to work leaving me on my own again.


This morning while you are reading this I will probably be outside bundled up against the cold climbing into the tractor, starting it up to warm the diesel engine so I can go and feed the cows. I will back up the tractor then drive down the lane way, I will hop out of the warm tractor and go open the gate, hoping the snow has not drifted to high so I will not have to plow it with the tractor loader. I will go and grab two bales of hay with the prongs on the loader then drive back out the gate. I again will climb out of the tractor to shut the gate, climb back in and then head for the cows. I will be smiling while watching the cows surround the tractor excited with the smells of the alfalfa bales. There will be calves running around happy to be free. I will break the bales up and spread it around so everyone will get the part they like the best. I will park the tractor turn off the engine then do the walk about and check.

I will be thinking about My Hero back at work not at the house, back to his “normal” meaning he is not around if I need "My" Hero to help with any problems that may arise. I will talk to the Mother cows and tell them how beautiful their calves are and I will talk to the calves trying to get them to accept me as one of the herd, knowing I am making progress and they are trusting me, sneaking closer every day.


 I know if my count is wrong and I have to go search for a cow maybe having a calf it will be fine as the cows are all healthy and contented with lots of shelter and bedding. I know that if there is a problem I cannot handle, I can pull out my cellphone and call Brother Dios (formerly Brother D) and I know he will drop everything and come to help. I am such a lucky girl to have so many Hero’s in my life making my life easier.


I will be leaving my snowshoes in the tractor from now on hoping everything will go well and I will be able to hop the fence and spend time surrounded by the place where all my past lessons have been figured out over time.

I do know I will be spending more time with my Mom and hopefully I will see my old family home finally be pulled down completely to rest, rather than sitting there like a long suffering leaning skeletal monument to my childhood memories. It truly deserves to rest in peace, taking all its hidden but never found treasures, and secrets with it.


I look forward to sharing these moments of my life with all of you and look forward to more of those lessons and getting back to my “normal”, whatever that may be.

Later

38 comments:

  1. Looking forward to hearing more about your adventures in 2013. I can just picture those cows excited, crowding around the tractor so that you can hardly get out the door, anxious for their hay! I'm curious...how do you break up the bales? Ours are baled so tightly we can hardly get them apart!

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  2. Dear girl, you tend to make even chorse sounds wonderful and magical. I know you work hard. I'm glad you love what you do.

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  3. Love your photos. That house coming down is a big thing for you :)
    And how I remember in days past many years ago, how we started to chat and you would say, 'I will go turn on the tractor to warm it up', then come back and we would continue our chat. Me ironing my sons shirts for school after my midnight...lol - That taught us to share our thoughts and our joys & troubles, we got each other through :) and all these years that have passed we are still friends from afar even though we have never met in the flesh.....my dear friend, have a great day. M xoxoxox

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  4. normal can mean so many different things to so many people. I hope the weather is kind to you this week........I hear we're in for a warming up week? Probably the calm before the storm.

    Have a good week,

    Gill

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  5. Well I hope your normal for this year is easier than last year, and involves more rain! I love the pic of the blowing snow.

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  6. Oh the joys of chores. It must be a day for routines to get back to normal and for us to be alone again. my people are all back at it again today too. I cant wait for the stories adn pictures of your year ahead! :}

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  7. I look forward to lessons and sharing as well. We are all the better for experiencing the everyday with you.

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  8. I think at this point, after watching your poor old house be ravaged and savaged, it will be a relief to see it sent to its eternal rest. Normal? Hmmmmm..... I guess that's different for each of us. Hope you settle into yours comfortably.

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  9. I love how positive you are about life and what it may throw you.

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  10. Is there a normal? All of your days seem very full, no matter what you are doing. I can see you now, in that gigantic tractor. These photos are spectacular...I especially love the last one. Keep up that positive attitude, nobody does it better.

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  11. brrrrr....you are probably outside right now. At least I know you are safe in that tractor. I was outside the other day, freezing, thinking about farmer friends who have no choice to go out in all kinds of weather to do their work. One thing about bees, there's not a lot to do in the winter months....except stay inside and build frames.

    Cindy Bee

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  12. I hope life is good to you this year. I completely understand that feeling of your hero going back to the other world. Mine was on vacation for almost a whole month- I loved having him home. So ready for retirement.

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  13. I was right there with you in the tractor, breaking apart the bales, sweet talking the cows...however, I've never done it in the snow.

    Lovely piece- here's to all the good 2013 will bring!

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  14. The first photo looks so cold with that blowing snow, reminds me of Alberta. Seriously love that tractor! Looks comfy and warm. My husband just bought an antique (1951) Case tractor with a blade on the back to keep our driveway plowed (Our landlord took the big tractor back to Alberta).
    I hope you have some enjoyable life lessons this year.

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  15. I hope by now you are inside and getting warmed up with a hot cup of tea.

    I hope you have a great week Buttons.

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  16. Beautiful. Simply beautiful.
    And I'm with Beth...I hope you got your tea;)

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  17. normal sounds good, but i don't think we'll be getting much of that. lessons await. *sigh*

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  18. B. I know what you mean about your childhood home. It does deserve to finally rest in peace, and you deserve the closure that having it gone will bring. And as for your dedication to your animals-bless you. Farming has got to be one of the hardest jobs there is and I for one appreciate what you guys do.
    Whatever this year brings for you, I'm so happy to be part of it:)

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  19. Normal? ?


    one thing I have "learned" is that life is not to be taken for granted...scheme for the future, but definitely live in the moment...

    and thats what you already do, friend! Thats why your blog is the best!

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  20. My Hubbers went back to work after a 2 week vacation from work as well. I enjoyed having him home, but I like the house to myself during the day!

    I believe that "everything happens for a reason", just can't quite figure out what it is a lot of the time.

    I love the way the snow looks so pristine in the country, ours is looking kinda grungy here in the urban setting.

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  21. And I so look forward to reading about all your adventures, trials, and victories over adversity. You are a tough woman with a sweet and caring heart. I wish you all the best for the new year.

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  22. Yup Papa here is also back to work and I am here not alone though cause I have my girls Miggs and Harley . Miggs is always with me so that's good company for me and yes I talk to her all the time mind you it usually is a one sided conversation but I know she understands just cant respond all the time lol ! Awesome photos and post . The temps here have warmed up and the sun is to be shining so that's a plus here for me ! Stay cozy and have a good day !

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  23. I definitely agree that every event has something to teach us. It may take a while to realize what it is, but we can learn from the good and the bad.

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  24. i hope your "normal" is wonderful buttons!

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  25. In this day of age is being normal actually being subnormal with the way the world is changing.
    I conciser myself subnormal, so does that make me normal.

    Im confusing myself now. lol

    Have a great day, i cannot wait for more of your tales, trials and tribulations !!

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  26. I've given up on "normal". Apparently, Life has a lot to teach me yet. Ah, well! I'm a willing participant. If I didn't have God in my life I'd go bonkers. Hope you get that sense of normalcy that you desire. Enjoy the time with your mom. Love that last shot of the beautiful trees!

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  27. Getting back to normal, whatever that may be, is always comforting to me. I look forward to sharing 2013 with you!!

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  28. Beautiful photos and wonderful thoughts...we all face challenges every day and don't often see the good in them till later, that is for sure.

    Thanks for your kind birthday wishes...I am praying for God's best in the next few years for all of us, but I know it will be a rocky road.

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  29. I look forward to hearing your stories. They calm me. They make me sit, like when I was a kid, and listen to the stories of my family. There is something comforting about that.

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  30. I do hope you find a happy normal this year. Just like you said I believe that the things that happen to us are lessons. Even if we don't know what the lesson is. And Maybe just maybe the lesson is for someone else not us. Wishing you a happy 2013. I really do enjoy your writing and your photos.

    Hugs~

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  31. Love your musings, Buttons, they are so relatable to us all in our journey's through this crazy life! Your photos are stunning, especially that last one with the sun coming through the trees. I love how you care so deeply, even about the welfare of your sweet cows. My heart aches for you about your childhood home being torn down. My parent's home sits empty and vandalized at the end of my road since they have passed, and I can't bring myself to go there, it breaks my heart. But all we can do is move forward and as you say, learn from the past and let go, keeping only the best memories in our hearts. Hugs, Karen xx

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  32. Stay warm Buttons! My fingers are crossed that this year coming is better than last for you.

    Oh, and stop by my blog, you'll find something there for you. =)

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  33. The last photo is stunning, B.

    I do hope the lessons learned this year are easy ones. :)

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  34. and then all obstacles go out the window when you encounter scenery like the warm glow of the sun peeking through the pines. :)

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  35. That is the snuggliest looking tractor seat I have ever seen :-)

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  36. I love the light in the first and last photos - those slanting rays from the setting sun!! Gooid idea about keeping the snowshoes in the tractor!! means you will get out to the bush, without the long walk from the house to tire you!!

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  37. I am sure the work can often be hard, but to be given those moments to reflect about life and your surrounding is a gift. Your photos do reflect those special moments that often surround you. Kind makes me want to take a deep breath in just reflecting on your reflections.

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  38. normal helps us get through each day hugs. love that tree shot

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