Friday, November 29, 2013

I Am Who I Am!

Whatever you are by nature, keep to it;
never desert your own line of talent.
Be what nature intended you for and you will succeed;
be anything else and you will be ten thousand times
worse than nothing.
                                       Sydney Smith.


It was 8:30 in the morning I had just pulled myself out of bed, I know that is not like me but these days it just happens. Without the usual looking out the bedroom window I shuffled to the kitchen and started the coffee pot, I thought to myself that I better hurry the cows will be wondering where I was. With my head down and my feet dragging I pulled out my chair and plunked down in front of the big window in my kitchen. Staring at the table I then realized how much this mood thing was worrying My Hero, he knows. Sitting side by side in my spot were two chocolate covered peppermints sitting on the table, I popped one in my mouth and a little smile finally emerged, I am truly a lucky girl, I looked up.


WOW…I wondered how My Hero had arranged that, he knows exactly what makes me forget about everything and to remember why I am really here and reminds me about who I truly am, I rushed back over to the counter poured half a cup of coffee I filled it with lots of milk, walked back popped that other chocolate which makes me smile bit in my mouth and gulped that coffee down. I had to get out there. I flew down the stairs pulled on those Stylin’ Black Coveralls over top of those frolicking Monkey Flannels, pulled on those Pink Cadillac Boots and threw some wood in the stove. I grabbed my snowshoes and I was off with a smile so big my face felt as if it would crack, it had not had a real one of those for a little while.


 I opened the door and that fresh snowy air grabbed hold of me and held me tight. With those snowshoes tucked under my arm, I trudged through that delicious (yes I tried it, it was not yellow) fluffy snowy whiteness while still thinking of the smooth minty chocolate mixed with delectable coffee still lingering in my mouth. I climbed into that tractor, threw those snowshoes behind the seat and started it up. I climbed down and started pushing that beautiful fluffy newness of white off the tractor and with every push I knew I was finding pieces of me that had been buried. How could I have forgotten what was buried right there all the time hiding from me, waiting for me to realize it had not gone I was just floundering and needed time to think and get through this uncontrollable situation.


With the windows now clean I climbed back into the cab and drove down the lane heading for those cows. The lane was decorated with a beauty that only Mother Nature could send, a message that I needed to see, guiding my way. I knew My Hero had not arranged this but I was sure he had been wishing. He truly does know what makes me smile and what has the power to bring me back to being who I am and never doubt that.


I will tell you the story about finding myself surrounded by the most beautiful snowy wilderness, a wonderful place where the noise of the world, the problems of the world, the doubts of life disappear and it becomes a world of possibilities and peace all wrapped up in this overwhelming love of a land that is as much a part of me as I of it. Buttons is back and she will see you Monday. Oh it is so beautiful. Was that one of my fast running lone Taunting Turkeys?


Mother Nature's huge brush dripping with a snowy white pure unattainable pallet combined with her one of a kind talent has truly done it again. There is no other artist that has the talent or the healing properties that she does. Thank you Mother Nature and oh yes I did not forget, you too My Hero.

Later

49 comments:

  1. Beautiful Buttons. Enjoy the day ahead of you, think of me as you go about your chores and I will be sending you some of our warmth and sunshine to go with all that lovely 'whiteness' you have there at the moment. Hugs Sue.xox

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  2. Oh Buttons this sounds so much better.... Was worried about you!!!! So many of us care for you and you've become one of the bright stars in our world!!.........peace to you and warm thoughts going your way!! Love the snow- we better get some soon---sooooo ready!!! Fondly, Rain :)
    ((Hugs))

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  3. Thinking of you!

    My dad lives on the American side of Cornwall/Brockville area (We can see Candada from our house) and he got dumped on with snow. In Maine, it all melted.

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  4. Glad you are back. The snow is beautiful.

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  5. wonderful story. fresh snow has a way of waking us all up with her beauty

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  6. Yay....Buttons is back. Thank gooness for Mother Nature and your Hero. Nothing harder to pull yourself out of than a deep funk....so glad you did it.

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  7. Never new snow could do such wonderful things!!

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  8. Your Hero is so very sweet! I'm happy you had such a wonderful morning to make a big smile crack your face! I'm smiling, too!

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  9. Peppermint hot chocolate is definitely a good cure for anything :) and those snowy pictures are absolutely amazing!!

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  10. Buttons you do inspire me , so thankful you share your thoughts with us.
    Much as I try to cover it I know what you mean about those times. Nature has a way of doing it for me too despite it all .
    Your so blessed to have such an understanding Hero too ~ you compliment each other so well , encouraging one another to "be who you are" in such a loving manner.
    Be Well my friend,
    Willow

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  11. The photos are all wonderful winter scenes! Beautiful post!

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  12. love that he left you little gifts to start your day. :)

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  13. I'm glad that nature in her snowy splendor helped you find that smile to put on your face. It is so good that you have your Hero.

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  14. Beautiful, beautiful! Great pictures, and wonderful writing!

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  15. I'm happy to see you back B! We had our first huge snowfall last weekend and I must say it was like a blanket of comfort.

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  16. Your heartwarming post has me smiling this morning. What a prince your hero is. I am so glad you found your smile.

    Hugs~

    PS.. I am loving the photos of your snow. so pretty..

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  17. I can see why you call him your hero...he is wonderful.

    Everyone gets into a funk now and then, but the climbing out is so joyous.

    Jen

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  18. Welcome back, B! I love that snow. It brings out my spirit, too! And your sweet Hero--he loves you so much, I can tell. :-)

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  19. What a beautiful post, Buttons! From the thoughtfulness of your Hero, to your intrepidness in finding the tractor and getting it going. (I'll bet the girls were happy to see you!)

    I have a much better sense of your farm from the pictures from your house.

    Blessings and Bear hugs!

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  20. That Hero of yours truly is a keeper. I have the sweetest image of you bending down to grab some snow to take a taste. Good thing it wasn't yellow haha. Love this post, B. Welcome back! :)

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  21. Another beautifully written story. Feelings don't elude you. Well, they don't elude any of us, but the difference is that you let them stick around and you examine them long enough to capture them in words. That's a wonderful talent.

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  22. Many times we don't take time to appreciate the goodness and beauty of snow. You gave a very spiritual description of snow and your here.

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  23. Glad you have made it through this struggle, Miss B! I missed you, though I knew you were somewhere within yourself all along. Sometimes it is good to be a turtle and take a moment to hide from the chaos around you; sometimes it is good to be like your Taunting Turkeys and just enjoy the moment :)

    HUGS! Mandi

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  24. Wow, that looks cold! I lived in Canada when I was a child and couldn't believe it the first day I woke up and saw how much snow you get there.
    Lynne

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  25. How wonderful. I hope that we'll have snow in the Netherlands soon as well :-)

    I hope you'll have a great weekend!
    dzjiedzjee.blogspot.com

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  26. Gorgeous, dear B! I'm so ready for some snow here!

    Chocolate and coffee in the morning is one of my favorite ways to start the day, too! Hugs!! xx

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  27. Gotta love the first couple of snowfalls when everything is fresh and clean - before the novelty wears off and we start cursing it.

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  28. It is great what coffee, chocolates and snow can do. Great writing and glad to hear you are back on track. Beautiful views from your tractor.

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  29. Yay!!!! BIg smiles and a happy dance for you. (and a hug too because hapy hugs are as important as sad ones).

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  30. i enjoy your special way you tell a story buttons!!

    the snow is beautiful....i am ready for some so send it my way!!

    hugs from the big apple!!

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  31. Hey Buttons...you sure picked up a lot of snow! Glad to know that smile is back on your face. Your Hero knows you well.

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  32. Snow everywhere...I'm hoping to keep it at bay for a while longer..we usually get ice instead of the good stuff! I am so glad you are feeling better. I cannot stay away from my blog because all so many wonderful people pass through- I miss them all- and you too!

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  33. That's what brings me back every time is the beauty of nature , Once I am out there it is amazing ! Thanks for sharing and lovely photos ! Have a good weekend !

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  34. Look at all that snow!!
    Looks cold, but it sure is beautiful!

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  35. Lovely, wonderful post! So glad you are back. And your snow pictures make me realize that telling everyone I am freezing because it is 58 degrees outside here is a little off the mark...

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  36. Indeed. Mother Nature is the best Artist. Ever.

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  37. Indeed, how wonderful is Mother Nature? So glad she has gotten you back to being you again (with your Hero's wish that helped of course).
    I know snow can be a problem but how I envy you it at this time of year as we head into a hot Christmas. It never ever snows in Perth nor in Western Australia really so a beauty we have to do without. Thank you so much for sharing your snow with we folks down under. xx

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  38. Beautiful post, Buttons! Love your winter landscape with the fresh snow and the distanced trees. Nice to see you are back and mother nature does gift us some beauty around us. I think sometimes we forget that. Thanks for the reminder.

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  39. Snow and chocolate mint patties - how can you go wrong! They both take my breath away. Love going out and taking that first frosty breath, same with the patty! :)

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  40. Pleased to read you are ok.
    Being in your tractor reminds me of our talks long ago :) my friend..Hugs M xox

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  41. Mints and snow, what could be more refreshing to the spirit? So glad you are feeling a renewed sense of energy and excitement - we always miss you when you are gone. Enjoy your pristine beauty and your sweet Mr. - Hugs xo Karen

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  42. Oh B, it's so beautiful!! I'm glad it was the perfect tonic. : )

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  43. Goodness, look at that snow! Your hero along with mother nature are the perfect tonic to help you get through the day. Stay warm, B!

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  44. Your snow sure is beautiful! You got me with..."the fresh snowy air grabbed me and held me tight". I'm glad you're back...your Hero is a smart man! :)

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  45. well, Shes back...and forth... ;p like i wouldnt know myself... The world throws us off kilter and then we walk that way for awhile, kinda enjoying it until it gets too .. too much lol...Id do it for chocolate peppermints though...dang, id do it for an m & m off of the truck floor...(not that i would know what they taste like or anything...what? it builds stamina to germs!)

    but for gawds sake, we gotta do something about the monkey pants...

    and are those...those flowers on your GLOVES?

    xoxox

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  46. I am at peace. Thank you for taking me with you on this journey. Beautiful writing.

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  47. Gotta love those men. Mine is also a gem. It is amazing how a fresh blanket of snow makes life a little brighter.

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  48. i love how you get exciting about fresh snow! it's like a clean slate! hugs!!

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