Friday, November 8, 2013

The Anxiety Scarf !

We have a lot of anxieties,
and one cancels out another very often.
            Sir Winston Leonard Spencer Churchhill


I was not going to post today for many reasons but a wise friend reminded me that even though I am under no obligation to post it has always brought me joy to share with my Blogger family and that it ultimately helps me think clearly. Simply put it makes me happy to share and I have to realize that no one can be this walking, talking, smiling and bursting with happy person all the time and that is alright. So here are my five Random 5 Friday thoughts.... happy or sad.

1-   I have been spending countless hours sitting in my little blue chair with my feet up looking out the window into the darkness from my kitchen trying to get past this sadness that has a tight hold of my being and will not release even with all the tugging and struggling I have been doing to loosen its grip. I  sit and I knit a scarf that will be gifted to a very important person in my life who I do hope never knows that it has now become my anxiety control scarf.


Oh yes that is a chocolate bar and it helps too.

2-   I have been going through some life changes that I have no control over and honestly I am pretty sure I am not the only one who has ever hit a wall that they need to scale and get back to those good things on the other side. So I knit and I knit, this seems to be working, my mind is racing and my fingers while trying to keep up seem to slow that racing mind down. Three feet in one very long sleepless night, oh yes I do realize that is a lot of tugging and struggling.


3-   I believe there was a reason that the universe sat me down beside my Mom one day in her new home and let me finally figure out this whole knitting thing that she had tried to teach me over and over when I was a teenager to no avail. I did not need it then. I am grateful for its calming elements now. Oh yes I need it now, it was indeed my time.


4-   I have two special friends that are going through “unpleasant” things in their life and I realize whatever I may think my problems are at this moment they are nothing in the big scheme of things. I want those two special women I love to know I am thinking of them and will keep knitting this anxiety scarf for them as much as myself. I hope you can feel the calm.


5-   The good friend that gave me that advice to post even though it may not be that happy post people usually expect from me I want to thank you. I cannot believe you know me so well and I love that about our friendship. Knit knit knit.

Oh yes and that wall I am trying to climb I am making headway and that sadness grip is indeed loosening.“The anxiety scarf” is going to be a beauty and I know he is going to love it.... I really have to stop calling it that.



By the way Google has decided to throw my blog posts into a dark corner of Blogger land and then when it finally trips over the discarded sleeping body in a corner they then decide it may as well be posted now. I do hope this post can find its own way.

Later

60 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry you're feeling anxious and sad. You're making great headway on your scarf, and I'm happy it helps bring you a little relief. I have faith you'll scale that wall in your own time. I'm sending calming thoughts your way - take care!

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  2. I was wondering where you were. Sorry you have been struggling. Blog posts don't always have to be happy. Your scarf is beautiful.

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  3. As far as Google blogs go, it's been the week from hell. This too shall pass.

    Glad to see you today my friend. xo

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  4. beautiful scraves. sorry to hear u r having issues blogger / google. i can totallt understand that too. been there done that many times. big big hugs. keep a smile no matter what & i know it will help. laughter helps me. my hubby will make me laugh when i am n a terrible mood & then it lightens the time big time. ( ;

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  5. I'm sorry you are going through some sad and anxious times right now...(((HUGS)))...Love your knitting and no blog posts don't always have to be happy

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  6. we are all climbing a mountain b! the view at the top will be gorgeous. the view on the other side, breathtaking!!

    your knitting is beautiful, lovely colors!!

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  7. I'm sorry to hear about the blues. But you are keeping your hands and mind busy. And thinking of others.

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  8. One of my news years goals was relearning how to knit. I agree that it would be very calming. Feel better!

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  9. Good Morning B. So glad you learned to knit, one of life's best therapies I think :). The colors you chose are fantastic and look great! I'm sorry the blues found you, life can be that way sometimes. I love visiting your blog and appreciate your honesty. Hang in my new friend this to shall pass and knit on...

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  10. Here is a GREAT BIG *HUG* to you Miss B!

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  11. google and blogger are definitely being tempermental this week.

    i am glad you have your knitting outlet. it is obviously good therapy for you. take that mind, spill out those thoughts into the stitches, leave the worry weaved where it goes.

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  12. Knitting has helped me through some stress!
    The scarf looks lovely :)

    I hope you have a great weekend!

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  13. You've got a lot going on around you. Sorry to hear about your two friends going through tough times. I hope things get better soon. And a chocolate bar always helps me as well :)

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  14. I completely understand the feeling of anxiety...I keep telling myself that 'this, too, shall pass" but sometimes it just takes longer than others.

    Also, I am like you, and tell myself I have no worries compared to most of the rest of the world.

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  15. I noticed the blogger is playing funny tricks this week. Sorry to read of your sadness and anxiety. Hopefully you will see some better days soon. Love your scarves.

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  16. The darkness is not forever. You are doing exactly as you need to. Distract yourself from dark emotions that threaten to pull you under. As a good friend once told me - lift yourself up by doing something for someone else. I help my aunt. She is depressed and handicapped and I take her out to explore the city. She beams like a little child each time I get her out of the house.

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  17. I'm so sorry you are going through a rough patch. Yes, we all have them, but it is so hard to bear sometimes. So glad you have your knitting to help you through. Hang in there, sweet lady. It will get better!!! Hugs!

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  18. your post found its way.

    My heart swells.

    All emotions are a part of all of us; you as a writer know this, and you write about them so well. I just want to stop your hands for moment, and share this with you http://calmingmanatee.com/
    yes, if you can keep laughing through the sorrow, then you are living. Leontein would expect that of us, you know.

    AND hey, I know its going to be okay, because I got me a magic nature scarf knitted by a woodland elf. Also, I think it was made with the intent that it will make an excellent slungshot if things dont go well on Monday..."DONT MAKE ME USE THE MAGIC NATURE SCARF ON YOU PEOPLE"

    xoxoxo


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  19. If scarves are no longer big enough....and you find you self needing to knit whole anxiety afghans...
    Then I will worry.
    For now, I have faith in your will and spirit.

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  20. I am sending a big hug your way, my friend. Let the knitting do its work. Better days are coming, nicer things on the horizon. I just know it~

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  21. I'm sorry you're feeling sad and anxious. Please know that you can write about anything -- it doesn't have to be happy. I'm glad you have your newfound pleasure in knitting. Your scarf is beautiful! You are indeed a natural. :-) Sending you a hug and many good thoughts, B.

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  22. Funny...knitting does just the opposite for me. I am sorry you are in a dark place right now. Keep knitting...your smile will come back.

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  23. I'm really glad that you found knitting and it helps you to deal with everything going on in your life. The scarf looks really pretty so far! I'm happy that you decided to blog today. It's always nice to hear from you.

    PS - You were in my dreams last night! I dreamed that a lot of my blogger friends came over to my house and you were one of them :)

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  24. Posts like this help those of us who cannot write them, you and 'we' are not alone, I hope that when this scarf is finished so are your concerns. My Mom taught me to knit so that I'd sit still and sort, she said each stitch isn't just of love but of sorting, putting things in order, giving each stitch a bad then a good, I've knit since I was 6 and still knit for the same calm. When I was 8 my Auntie Ragna would teach me the same thing, when she died two years later I knit the most outrageously over sized teddy bear sweater and I felt better. xxoo

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  25. Buttons, have you thought about taking your knitting out on one of your bush walks?

    Hugs for you and a prayer too.

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  26. Warm soft cuddly yarn is always fun!...:)JP

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  27. I noticed that Blogger sure is doing funny things with your posts! I expect to see them first thing on Mon/Wed/Fri when I get up, but here it is mid afternoon and just showed up on my feed. But regardless...I'm glad to hear from you! I'm glad that the wall is being conquered! Never give up! I'm sure the knitting is therapeutic, and having been taught by your Mom, even more special!

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  28. Hugs for you Buttons. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

    Blogger has been taking hours to list my posts. Very discouraging!

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  29. Sending you a hug. I'm glad you have found knitting and that it helps. Keep looking forward. knit knit knit

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  30. I send you hugs, Buttons, from sunny East Tennessee on this Friday afternoon! That scarf is a beauty!

    xo Nellie

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  31. This too will pass. In the meantime just keep on knitting. It took me a summer of scraping paint to work through what wouldn't let go of my mind.

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  32. Hope you are feeling happier soon, it is no fun being anxious and miserable. Your scarf is looking lovely.
    Hugs, Lynne

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  33. So sorry about the sadness in your life right now .... :-(
    I hear ya about the knitting and how it helps. It is quite therapeutic. Keep it going.
    Things will get better.

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  34. We are who we are and not a single one of us has nothing but happy, cheery lives day in, day out. It's how we deal with it that matters B, and I think you're doing a fine job.

    hugs
    Andrea

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  35. I would go out of my ever loving mind if I didn't have the knitting to keep me sane! My dear sister taught me that. With the crosses that dear woman has had to bear the last five or so years, the act of knitting has been a God Send.

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  36. I once dreamed that I was in the dungeons of the Tower of London and a Google employee was standing there with a large spindle, rolling up my entire blog on it. Rings true, doesn't it?

    I'm so glad the knitting helps you, as going to your place in the bush helps you sort out the things that create a wall in your life.

    Do you have any kitties or dogs at your farm? They always help me so much.

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  37. B,

    Sending a large hug to you (((((B)))))) things will get easier as time goes by. Enjoy knitting and taking those beautiful pictures with Leo.

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  38. Sorry to hear you are down in the dumps as we call it here . I hope all goes well for your friends and you find your happy again . Lovely scarf I do like the colours . Hope blogger/Google smartens up for you . Get your blanket and snuggle under it cause that's me wrapping you up with big HUGS !

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  39. Your post has found its way to us...

    I'm so sorry that you are going through this, sad times for friends is never easy.

    I was reading that knitting helps the brain calm down, and focus. That's going to be some scarf when you are done..it's good for the fingers and the heart to do such beautiful work.

    Jen

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  40. A warm embrace to you. I'm happy to read that knitting provides an outlet of relief.

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  41. I agree with lisa, blog posts don't always have to be happy. I'm sure posting about your sadness will also help you scale that wall as well s that great knitting. You have learnt well.

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  42. You are not alone. Many of us are only an email away.

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  43. That is wonderful that you picked up the knitting from your mum, you were interested to find out how to do it - the timing was right for a reason. If you get comfort out of knitting then may it continue.

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  44. Keep knitting girl! "Everything happens for a reason." I think learning to knit will be of a great benefit to you.

    Blogger is going nutsy, but we will find each other, not matter how hard it tries to disconnect us.

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  45. Life is difficult sometimes and we have to keep that faith that all will work out in the end. My daughter is going through a difficult time and I am filled with sadness for her, but I have to respect her privacy and can't go 'public' so I am crocheting a scarf, just like you my friend, and I swear it is helping to keep me calm. All things must pass - sending warm love and a big hug. xoxo

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  46. I am feeling so much compassion for you right now. It may seem weird to some, this blogging community of ours, but we are real people living real lives and we are here for each other through good times and sad times.

    Keep knitting, dear friend! The scarves are beautiful, in more ways than one. xoxo

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  47. Thank you for your honesty. When I visit blogs, I do not expect every post to be happy and upbeat. I much prefer real! We all have these difficult times, and we can get through them more easily when we can share them.

    Knitting is such a healing activity. I picked it up again about a year and a half ago after decades of not doing it, and I wonder why I stayed away from it for so long.

    Hang in there. We're here with you.

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  48. Love the colours of that scarf! Keep knitting, Buttons. It's great that it helps calm you.

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  49. I sometimes end my blog posts and my emails with the line " ... just keep sewing ..." and when I do it means I am in a personal place in life where I need the colorful fabric and thread flowing through my fingers just to help keep moving me forward to a better place. So ... I understand ... just keep knitting ... <3 Pat

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  50. It's so good you posted even though you weren't feeling it.
    Life does have it's "ups and downs" but I believe God gave us friends (even the blogging ones we may never meet in person) to help us through those rough patches. Whatever you are going through I pray that you will find peace and comfort. So happy that the knitting helps to relax you and gives you an outlet for working through things.

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  51. i love your honesty- fall with all it's inherent darkness leaves me running for the vit D3 and natural serotonin enhancers( yes chocolate it is!) too.
    Keep knitting. Creative therapy at its best.

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  52. beautiful scarf. I get the anxious feeling. Five exams in 24 days to prepare...I'm feeling the law school pressure.

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  53. I know that when I keep busy, with whatever it helps me in those really hard days. I have to admit though that sometimes the hard days can make me immovable. I find myself sliding back down that wall. I hope, and I mean this, I hope things get better for you really soon!

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  54. So sorry to hear the blues got you down. I am up and down my self. I do believe when I don't get enough sleep I become this evil person I don't even know.. I am pretty sure for me it is the ugly "M" word. You know the change of life. I tried Hormone replacement therapy and it gave me high blood pressure. So that's out. Which is a bummer, because I felt so much better on it. So now I have been taking an over the counter sleeping pill. It has helped. But I still get those darn HOT FLASHES.

    Thanks for sharing. I think it helps to let it all out sometimes.

    Big hugs my friend..

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  55. I agree with your friend, that doing what brings you comfort is a good thing. We are not here just because you are happy all the time - we are here because you are important to us. I know you are not going to spew out all the details, but share the emotions!!! Laughter shared is doubled, and tears shared are halved...

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  56. I am glad you have learned to knit , looks like you are doing a great job too. It is comforting .
    Anxiety is so terribly exhausting isn't it , I hope you find serenity to be being okay in he moment, again soon.
    Glad you decided to share, we care.
    Hugs,
    Willow

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  57. I am glad you learned how to knit. Your post reminds me of sitting in the waiting room, while my husband went through major surgery. I quilted for 6 hours. It certainly helped me keep calm. Thank you for sharing. I hope everything turns out all right.

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  58. I am glad you have found a way to ease that anxiety, and funny that it can be one thing for you and become a thing of beauty. Tell you a secret, the reason I started writing poetry again after so many years was a similar thing, I had so much pent up "stuff" it needed a release! some was poetry no one will ever see and some I shared and as you know eventually published, in its way it helped me let go of pain and find my joy. I will be keeping you in my prayers and hoping your struggles ease soon

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  59. I lost you too- that confounded blogger thingie! Knitting & crocheting have always been calming to me, until my eyes got bad...now either mostly just cause headaches. SIGH. I used to love to crochet afghans...I still have one or two from my early twenties...I knitted a lot of stress away back then!

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  60. This post is so real and I have you in my thoughts right now. I think you're wise to find a way channel your energy when you're thinking. Hopeful thoughts coming your way.

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