After crosses and losses men grow humbler and wiser.
As you are sitting down reading this I am not, hopefully Google has posted this post but I will not know because I will not be checking. I will be getting up this Monday November 25th and by passing the computer and not turning on my cell phone. Oh yes that is what I said, Buttons will be taking a techy break. This is what she needs to do.
I cannot believe that just one month from today it will be Christmas morning; our friends from the USA kick off the seasons festivities with their Thanksgiving this week. Since I really love my friends south of the border I will be kicking off my own festivities and trying to find that Christmas spirit.
There has not been any block of time for me to clean, cook, shop or even think of those joys that lie ahead. The joy and happiness that usually has me humming silly Christmas songs as I bake in my kitchen and strolling through the crowds of smiling happy shoppers all humming has alluded me this year. I have been so wrapped up in a world that seems to have consumed me, a world I have no control over and I seemed to have lost myself.
Today is the day I will spend the whole entire day with a person I have been missing. Me!
I have forgotten how much I loved spending time with this Buttons character this humming girl full of happiness who can always get things done, who knows who she is and loves sharing those joys with others, not this girl who has been walking around pretending she is alright and wearing a phoney smile.
I need to find the things hiding under a neglected pile of dust where someone had left huge X’s and O’s written in that dust. I am pretty sure you all know who that would be, ever My Hero. Kisses and Hugs left that I have not taken the time to see nor acknowledge. That is wrong on so many levels.
I am certainly not blaming the internet for this I have many more things on my plate right now that demand my attention that have nothing to do with technology, but this seems to me to be the only thing I do have total control of right now.
So my dear friends Buttons has left the building, she shall be searching out those other neglected under a layer of dust signs she seems to have been missing. I will return hopefully on Friday refreshed, relaxed and content with the fact that I had finally taken the time to notice that real stuff that matters hidden under a pile of dust that has been sitting right in front of me all this time glossed over by an overwhelming crazy month full of things I cannot control.
Happy Thanksgiving to all my dear friends south of the border I will be thinking of you and please do not mail me a turkey sandwich even though I would love one, I am pretty sure those poor border security guards would be very tempted if they unfortunately had to work while their families were at home enjoying that dinner they wish they could be eating and enjoying with them.
By the way if anyone really needs me, pick up the phone and leave me a message or I have heard Carrier Pigeons are making a comeback; that would be fun. Thank you my friends.
While sitting writing this post on Sunday morning there was a knock at my door, on my opening the door a young man (our neighbour) with a huge smile on his face handed me an apple cake he had baked, I burst into tears. This poor young man stood there and did not know what to say, he did not realize that he had made my day and the impact that had on me. I am indeed the luckiest girl in the world. Buttons is on her way back. Thanks Adam.