Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Mornings of Silence!

News, the manna of a day.
              Mary Anne Everett Greene


It is 7:00 o’clock Tuesday morning and I stare at that loud ticking clock, the one that sits above a small screen TV. My body tells me it is 6:00 o’clock and I struggle to get my head wrapped around this time change, I fall asleep earlier and drag myself out of bed later, and still remain exhausted. I am pretty sure there is no daylight savings time going on in my world as I seem to drop to sleep as soon as the sun goes down, last night that happened to be in my chair with my knitting needles and this morning it is still dark as I drag my body out to my kitchen to see my sunrise. There is no glorious sunrise to bring that smile to my face today dull, dull dull. I pour a coffee and plop into my chair with a thud, my head still fuzzy with strange dreams and thoughts from long ago.

The TV is on and its humming, buzzing sound penetrates those thoughts. I never leave the TV on in the mornings but since My Hero had been catching up with the world’s events and of course our ever changing weather before his heading off to work and on my hearing the weatherman warning of more snow on its way I left it on to listen. I now find I am just too tired to get up off my chair to switch that noisy box off. The noise and the images that flash across the screen bring a flood of memories.

 A very crowded house from long ago where this very same show Canada AM was always on. A little TV in the middle of a swirling churning house full of that same constant humming, buzzing, chattering noise, but mixed with the sounds of constant running and scrambling, of screams of “Where’s my sock?” mixed with childish laughter as many children were trying to get ready to start their day while all the time two exhausted parents were somehow with all the confusion and noise still able to hear what was going on in the outside world coming into our home from this tiny box.

Dad was sitting in front of the TV with a newspaper while listening to this news, he always had this incredible need to know what was going on in that world outside, I often wondered why. The news had always frightened me as a child those images of horrible things that happened all over the world making me wanting to never leave this place of constant humming buzzing chatter and those sounds of running, scrambling and screams of “Where’s my sock?” mixed with childish laughter.

No matter how many times I dreamed of someday having my own place filled with silence I seemed to always find myself unwillingly drawn to that TV flashing with its images of death, heartache and constant fighting and I remember how its humming, buzzing chatter always made me worry about that world and thinking that it was only filled with unimaginable noise and constant turmoil, making me need to cling ever so tightly to my own noisy room. Why did my Dad have this constant need to know all those frightening things?

Did he not find that he filled his head with enough humming, buzzing chatter and those sounds of running and scrambling and screams of “Where’s my sock?” mixed with childish laughter every morning there in that crowded house sitting in the middle of a protected room where we had only let the outside world in through that little TV every morning.

Oh I have to admit I do miss those noisy mornings sometimes. I know I am like my Dad with that need to know what is going on in this world but I pull myself up and I turn off my little TV, something he must not have been able to do; once again I surround myself with a room filled with silence. Did my Dad ever want to do that too, or was he just trying to drown out the constant chatter and those sounds of running, scrambling and screams of “Where’s my sock?” mixed with childish laughter or was it really an unexplainable need to know what he was missing outside in the “real” world?


My sunrise is finally trying to make an appearance, there’s that smile I knew was there. I now have this overwhelming need to once again surround myself with a true silence as those memories swirl around in my head. My head is still fuzzy and I wonder how the cows are holding up with the daylight savings time thing. Could their heads be fuzzy too? They are lucky that they do not have a clock to stare at, so probably not. I’m coming girls; then I will be off to the bush and my world.


Later.

51 comments:

  1. Silence is a beautiful gift.
    Happy Sunrise B!

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  2. I love the sound of silence, also. This daylight savings time has me struggling in the morning. I love the image of your childhood home filled with all the sounds of a busy home.

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  3. I need silence sometimes; crave it with an almost frightening hunger. Maybe because of my own memories of noisy mornings?

    Enjoy your silence. *hugs*

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  4. i love silence - it is just perfect. i use to think i was lonely but then i got use to it & i crave silence a lot... i need to clear my mind & relax. you are so right. ( :

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  5. I prefer silence myself. I don't like a lot of background noise.

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  6. I was an only child, my Father was a quiet man who loved quiet time I often found our house too quiet but in the end I am my Father's daughter and do not function well if I don't spend a portion of each day in silence. Lovely Post...

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  7. What a beautiful post. One of the reasons I love mornings is because of the silence...the stillness. It's the most beautiful time of day :)

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  8. The radio is my constant companion each day -- the tv doesn't come on until after dinner.

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  9. Miss B,
    I had a little jet lag getting used to the time change too.

    It's funny what will bring back childhood memories. My Dad sounds like yours. Dad knows details about politics and world news that I have little clue about. I think his current events watching is part of life long learning, business and starting conversations at the feed store.

    I don't watch much tv. I do try to tune into our local news, but quit watching national news years ago because it added to my depression. I prefer the quiet too.

    I can always find my socks, it's my shoes that seem to move around on me.

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  10. Oh Silence, probably what I need the most, thrown out of my silence into traffic and apt, slowly kills me...I had to stop by to see who you were Buttons,'cause for a second over at Keith's you saw me, and I thank you so much for that, It meant the world to me to be seen. I wish you happiness and all the beauty and silence you need to survive, gratefully yours, Lorraine

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  11. I look forward to my morning silence. Unfortunately the dentist's receptionist just broke it with her reminder that I have a root canal at 1:45 today. :( Linda@Wetcreek Blog
    Your post today was an English teacher's dream. Thanks for sharing!

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  12. Memories... Yours are very warm and comforting... Except for the tv, that is. But you can be a child again, in memories. And only remember the nice....

    Nope, I no longer am driven to "Know The News." Oh I was! I was! I was! But thankfully, I have broken myself of the habit.

    I admit, I'm too old to always "Know The News." I am too old to dwell in anything, about which I can do nothing, but "stew."

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  13. We've exchanged early mornings for more sun in the evening. I find I'm staying in bed longer.

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  14. A wonderful post my friend! I don't like to watch the news either! It really is sad how mean we are to each other! I just wish they would publish happy news!

    Hugs~

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  15. Lovely post, my friend, and one that is close to my heart. I have to have some silence each day or I get very cranky!

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  16. I love silence in my home and outdoors. News makes me cringe...everyone is trying to talk over everyone else. Opinions of this and that, and honestly, who cares! Their opinions don't make anything so.

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  17. Buttons,
    Many thanks for the visit.
    Glad to be here.
    It's very quiet and peaceful at my house this morning, I have not turned on the TV and all I hear is my golden retriever sleeping peacefully at my feet.

    May you always find the silence that you need to renew your spirit.

    I really enjoyed this post.

    Margie
    x

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  18. Awww, you have so many memories and I love when you share them here. I do like to have the TV on while I'm getting ready in the morning. I like some background noise and to know what's going on in the world.

    I am not a fan of daylight saving time. It's so hard to wake up when it's still dark outside!

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  19. i have been struggling with the time change as well!!

    i love noise when family gathers and i adore silence, when it's needed!!

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  20. Daylight savings time has really hit me hard this year...I must be getting "old"! I like to know what's going on around me...but oh, how I treasure the silence, too!

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  21. DST really takes some getting used to. By the time I am adjusted it is time to turn the clocks back an hour. LOL

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  22. i used to have to have the tv on constantly for background noise but over the past few years i have grown to love the quiet. i don't turn it on in the mornings and then when i get home from school i sit here in quiet for about a half hour until i turn on my workout!

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  23. I love the sound of silence. It is so calming. I am having a hard time with the time change too. Definitely need more sleep. xo Laura

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  24. I love getting up early to hear the sounds of the early morning nature we have here as it wakes , birds chirping and singing , the farm animals down the road waking up and their roosters crowing as the sun rises that is my perfect wake up call ! I had that as a kid when I was growing up on our farm and have it again now and wouldn't change it for anything ! Lovely post . Thanks for sharing ! Have a good day !

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  25. Beautiful story. Oh, the memories we have to pull our and enjoy anytime.

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  26. I love the sound of silence too. I have been going to bed earlier to catch up with the Daylights saving time and still tired when I get up.

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  27. I don't think I've ever experienced silence...not totally...peace, tranquility, but never silence. ...:)JP

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  28. Hugs, hugs and more hugs, dear B! How I've missed you! xx

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  29. I rarely turn the TV on until evening when we might watch a show or 2. I sometime read the news of the day on the computer, but I've lost faith in the way it's reported. I always have to determine the bias of the person reporting. Plain facts seem to have disappeared. Was it always that way, or is it getting worse?

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  30. I like your description of a household full of kids. Well done. It brings back memories for me.

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  31. Lovely memories of noise.
    Silence is sometimes 'golden', other times a curse.
    Enjoy your day, and you could always get up at your normal time plus go to bed at your normal time. Many a farmer does do that down here when daylight saving begins, and gradually change by 15 to 30 minutes each day...seems to help some farmers down on this island. Hugs M xox

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  32. Guess having to adjust to time change can teach us to be open to climbing out of the ruts we dig for ourselves. I know if I could fold space I'd move us closer together so we could share a walk on our snowshoes.

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  33. I love my silent mornings before the house has woken up.

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  34. We grow accustomed to the silence here. Then, when everyone is home again, we have to adjust to the lack of it. I am no fan of daylight savings time. I prefer my daylight in the morning hours.:)

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  35. I love silence, but not at home; I always have something going. This time change thing has got to stop. I hate it!

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  36. Beautiful post, B! I enjoyed it so much. I love silence too. Sometimes I wake up in the early morning and just enjoy the silence of the world. Then the clock radio gets me up with the news. :-)

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  37. DLS has done me in! I find myself so slow to get started in the morning. I find the pets have just as hard a time!

    My house is usually very silent. I am not a tv or radio user. I do enjoy listening to music of my own choosing sometimes, not something some radio station thinks everyone should hear.

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  38. I miss morning silence with the littles, someday I'll get it back. The first picture looks like a dream picture. So serene.

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  39. I'm still struggling with daylights saving! As soon as its dark, boom, I'm asleep.
    Silence is so welcoming.

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  40. I too love to have silent times. Although I spent 30 years surrounded by noisy schoolchildren I do love to have quiet around me at home. I don't watch a lot of TV but I have a sneaking feeling that TOH would watch more if it wasn't for me not liking daytime TV. I can't stand the neighbourhood's barking dogs. My favourite time is walking alone in the forest or along the beach.

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  41. The cows do just fine without Daylight Savings, maybe people should get rid of it, because it sure doesn't seem to 'save' anything! We don't 'do' Daylight Savings here in Arizona and seem to get along just fine! ;)
    I do need the TV in the morning...for the weather forecast. LOL!!

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  42. Wonderful post! I have had a really hard time with the DST change this past weekend too. My mornings are dark now and I'm sleeping in instead of rising with the sun. Except for this morning. We had very little sleep as we listened to the blizzard rage outside most of the night so I got up at 6:30. I hope you find some quiet today. Blessings. Pamela

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  43. How much snow did you get this time? I am about ready to crawl back into my burrow and hibernate...
    Practical is going better than I had feared, but it is still a lot of work!!!

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  44. I love the happiness in silence not always. Silence can teach us many lessons.

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  45. My mornings are most often silent. It allows me to charge up for the day ahead. I love silence only broken by birdsong.

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  46. Lovely post B.
    I get up and walk away from the news when its on sometimes.
    I hate that helpless feeling I get. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make things right for those who need it to be :D)

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  47. Your story about the awful outside world strikes a chord with me today. Today I was finally able to help my Ukrainian students call their families back home. The news has a much harsher reality for them. Thankfully all is well for now. I, like you, prefer a quiet morning. When I get to work there is enough harsh reality.

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  48. There seems to be so much drama projected, it's nice to be able to turn it off and listen to the silence. That hour of sleep messes with me, too.

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  49. I lo the sound of silence, but only as a reprieve from noise, not as a permanent fixture! I have coped lease ell with the time change this week!

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