Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Pushing Through!

And the heart that is soonest awake to the flowers,
Is always the first to be touche’d by the thorns.
                         Thomas Moore


Things are getting rather busy around here and I have no idea now with the snow finally starting to melt, how everything that needs to be done will get done. A list runs through my head constantly keeping me up at night. I watch the girls waddle around carefully maneuvering around the patches of ice that dot the field most every morning. I would like to get this calving thing under way but I have no control over that. It will happen when it happens. The girls do not seem to be in any hurry making me wonder, do they not know how much I have to do. Come on already. I check them twice a day watching for signs, nothing yet except for big bellies and waddling. I am sure that will change very quickly.


I continue to enjoy those increasingly fewer stolen moments in the bush, there is still a lot of snow hiding the secrets of the winter but it is starting to get increasingly wet back there uncovering those secrets. Early mornings I try to walk through checking for signs of spring but as of yet there does not appear to be too many. There are signs of the fall still clinging to the trees and I wonder when those old leaves that clung all winter will be pushed to the ground, I am amazed at their strength to hold on after this long hard winter. Our lives are somewhat similar we have to hold on no matter what and believe things will work out and life will continue to move along just like it has always done.


I look at photos of the snowbanks pushed to the side of the long lane way melting away and think of just how many times this winter I have had to phone My Hero defeated and ready to give up. I would listen to his calming reassuring voice talk me through getting unstuck and I continued to find myself stuck in the middle of a snowbank that appeared magically while I slept over and over. I did not think I could do it and I was getting so tired of trying. My Hero always believed that I could and I have to say I am very skilled in the art of using a differential lock and the bucket of the tractor to get myself out of those situations. It is nice when someone believes in you more than you believe in yourself.

If nothing else winter has taught me patience, stamina and to believe in my own strength after a winter that kept slapping me down. Those days where I thought I could not get through something that seemed insurmountable and just wanted to give up I did find that strength I needed buried deep inside to push myself through and get what needed to be done, done. It has been a very long winter and I am now waiting for spring calves and the new challenges that come with that. Every season brings different challenges on the farm and sometimes life off the farm piles more on, this year it had really piled it on, much like the snow kept piling up so did life’s problems. Lots and lots of both continually trying to keep me buried, but I made it through.


The sun is coming up and the girls are waiting, I can see them looking for me, so I should get moving. I never know what lies beyond that door when I venture out into the world every morning but I do know I can get through anything if I never lose sight of the fact that there is a hidden strength that everyone of us has buried and waiting till it is truly needed. All we have to do when we fall to the ground is pull ourselves up and continue on as best we can.


Later



40 comments:

  1. Not knowing what awaits when you step outside is the best!!!...:)JP

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  2. Hang in there, Miss B. You are right, we have an incredible strength within us that we don't always realize. I'm so glad that Your Hero is loving and supportive, that makes a big difference!

    Sending well wishes, prayers and hugs your way this morning and always.

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  3. i think i get what you mean - this year has taught me a lot about myself ... the hubby has work stress, wishing for retirement a little early, me trying to find my path in this world of ours. we all have pressure, whether it be similar or totally different - it is so tough. at times we wonder how we can make it through. but by the skin of our teeth - we some how get on through with no problems. it's super cool when you can look back & think - why did i stress or worry at all??! keep walking, B. ( :

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  4. A long hard winter for you and your family in the snow.
    Take care. Hugs M xxxx

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  5. Oh goodness, it does seem that this is the winter that will never end... it snowed again here, yesterday, while the daffodils are blooming!

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  6. You just keep on keepin' on girl. Soon there will be babies and green sprouts and mud puddles..the spring rain will fall and clean everything off..the spring winds will cause tree roots to do natures plowing deep underground and the whole cycle will start again.

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  7. "...winter has taught me patience, stamina and to believe in my own strength "

    Wonderful "found" abilities!!!!

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  8. The drag of a long hard winter is the pits! Before you know it those babies will be bounding around in green grass and warm sunshine.
    Cheri

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  9. I love all of your photos Buttons!
    My yard is bare of snow now and if we get any more I think I will scream. LOL

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  10. Relax B, all things will happen in due time, usually when it seems most inconvenient! ;)

    But seriously, don't sweat the small stuff.

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  11. It's always nice having someone in our corner. Nice to have a hero in your life :)

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  12. hoping your melts will continue and make that calving season easier for all concerned! hope BA is doing well, too.

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  13. Hang in their dear Buttons. Women are all stronger than they think they are.

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  14. You what they say "What doesn't kill you will make your stronger". You are one strong woman B, and you can take great pride in that!

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  15. It has been a long harsh winter that's for sure . But us being Canadians we always make it through what ever the weather has to throw at us , we may get knocked back off track every now and then but we get our selves right back on track and carry on !. Hope the calving goes well . The melt is on here to but so was the surprise of snow falling again so far all on the melt again cold but they say by next week we should be in the temps we should be for this time of year . Thank goodness ! Thanks for sharing . Have a good day !

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  16. How thoughtless of those cows, to not get going on the calving!! Don't they know it's practically spring?

    Pearl

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  17. Yes, this winter has been trying to teach us all patience. Hope the calving goes well and will start soon. It's an anxious time for all I'll bet. :)

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  18. B,

    Winter, snow and ice teach us so many lessons.

    Staying calm, and having the strength will get you through this weather. Remember this too shall pass.

    Then spring will appear, with new things to see and more pictures to take.

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  19. It's taught us patience. That's a great way to look at this long winter. Hope you're calves come soon! :)

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  20. It really has been a tough winter... and now, what a treat Spring will be! Good luck with calving.

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  21. I bet spring comes on so fast. I bet it is beautiful to see winter to turn into spring there at your house.
    I bet it is just lovely. Soon there will be calves to look at.
    How nice.

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  22. It's been a long winter, we all deserve a good soft spring. I'm ready, and I know that everyone else is ready too. Can't wait to see baby photos when the girls decide it's time.

    Jen

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  23. The last shot of knees, boots and snow shoe had me buffaloed for a while. Good on you for being able to pick yourself up and go on.

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  24. Looking forward to the baby pics when they come along. Great images and hope the melt is a slow one without any major problems.

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  25. One step at a time, one task at a time. Sometimes I have to tell myself that. You have so much strength, B. Keep believing that!

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  26. It so hard to not let those wheels spin in our minds when there is so much to do. And isn't it nice that you have someone who believes in you. Take care my friend.

    Hugs~

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  27. You really know how to persevere in the winter.

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  28. Even with all the ups and downs you live in a heavenly spot.

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  29. I imagine when the girls decide to calve, it will all at once! I hope not... hang in there my friend. xo

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  30. If your cows are like ours they will all try to calve at once and you will be running around like crazy. but there's nothing like a new baby calf. Blessings to you my friend! and may spring makes its presence known soon to us all :)!

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  31. for me...it's the not knowing that i enjoy most ;)

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  32. Surely this is a site well worth seeing.

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  33. Your strength and words inspire me MS. B.
    I am amazed at how much the words and shared experiences of bloggers over this past year have made such a difference in my life , such a difference.
    You are one of my blog heroes.
    Thank you so much for sharing your world and experiences and how you see things.
    Huge gratitude ,
    Willow

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  34. I would be worried, too, B, knowing all those babies are getting ready to greet the world - I don't know how you do it. But like you said, there is inner strength lying there waiting for when we need it most. It is a wonderful feeling to know that someone has faith in us - we all need that special someone to help us along when the journey gets tough and we are stuck, figuratively and literally. Love the photos of the snow and that little clump of hair stuck in the tree. Some little nesting bird will really appreciate that soon. Wishing you strength and faith that it will all fall into place. Hugs xo Karen

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  35. Yes, it's that inner strength that's important isn't it.
    I'm always in awe of your attitude to life B, right through you've had such ups and downs. You always come up smiling and that's beaut.
    Interesting times ahead... babies in the snow :D)

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  36. It is a blessing to have someone to believe in us more than we ourselves. Spring is on the way, hang in there!

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  37. Your story telling is amazing, your strenght is inspiring and your photos share a piece of your soul. I am in awe of all these and more. I know I am late getting here and just read all your blogs from her to present as your life is always an inspiration to me. I wish I could comment and write at each blog, but the words don't come so easy to me and your blogs feel me with so many thought of what a wonderful way you have in taking life in and expressing it. So my dear wishing you a wonderful spring as I know the greens are showing now. I soo love the first photo just amazing.

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