If you have built castles in the air,
your work need not be lost;
there is where they should be.
Now put a foundation under them.
Henry David Thoreau
As a mother of the bride to be my thoughts and actions have been all over the place these days and this weekend was no different, the girls were down together which does not happen near enough as far as I am concerned and there was all that behind the scenes wedding prepping going on.
After a long day of baling hay in between the rain showers that continue to pop up without warning making it a very frustrating season I lie in bed my head finally cradled in that pillow that I had been dreaming about all afternoon while going round and round in the field anticipating this exact moment, listening. Listening to the giggles of two little girls, little girls of long ago, who have always brought such indescribable joy to the man of my dreams and my life.
There was talk of upcoming wedding plans combined with old memory conversations mixing with that familiar laughter I had been missing and those giggles I had longed to hear echoing down the hall once again. Oh how I love to have our girls home at the same time. My exhaustion was winning out over my need to be sitting in the middle of those conversations and my not wanting to miss one special moment with the girls. Thinking about the man of my little girls’ dreams and the man of my dreams I drift off to sleep.
Dreams….. The man of my dreams dragged me off to live on a farm and to a life I really did not know anything about; it was exciting, wonderful, frustrating, and emotionally and physically painful but also an incredible life full of happiness and joy, a life where now thinking back I would not change one thing. We made it through the bad stuff to reach the good stuff. Our children were a huge part of the good stuff.
Very soon our oldest little girl will be walking down the aisle or should I say lawn to stand beside the man of her dreams with the views of the farm behind, to start a life of their own far away from this farm that she will have to say goodbye. There will be exciting, wonderful, frustrating, and emotionally and physically painful moments for them but it is going to be worth every moment in the end as long as they remember to trust believe and laugh. The laughter thing I have come to know is the most important and will get you through the rest.
A new beginning, a wonderful life, a dream that will come true no matter how many times they may doubt it, I have no doubt they will make it through. The laughter coming down the hall interrupts my dreaming as I lie on my pillow and I listen to our girls planning the day that will change all our lives but knowing as long as the laughter continues her and the man of her dreams can and will take on anything and make those dreams come true.
Oh yes the man of her dreams and all those dreams that will come with, she is going to be just fine.