Thursday, February 19, 2015

Struggling! (Some things never change......a re-post from February 2014).

February 5, 2014.

Look well into thyself;
there is a source of strength which will always spring up
if thou wilt always look there.
                         Marcus Aurelius 

 
I have been listening to the weather reports and more snow is on its way. I have to say January was a month I seemed to have struggled with. The sheer amount of snow we have had, the incredibly low temperatures and those biting winds have kept me out of the bush and exploring more than I would have liked. Last week I made a point of going out there at least four times early in the morning. The temperatures are a little more normal and a bit warmer and I honestly need to surround myself with this place no matter what the elements may bring to clear my mind and workout things I am struggling with.

There have been many challenges in my life lately and I thought last year was tough but it looks like 2014 is not going to be as easy as I thought and had hoped for. I vow to make the most of the good parts by surrounding myself with nature and observing what goes on back there in my wilderness, it has so much to teach. Over the years it has certainly taught me lessons and reminds me every time I venture back there that there are lots of struggles in life but you make the most of things and get through them the best way you know and it will all work out. I need to keep going there with that belief in my heart. It is all in the way I choose to look it.


The snow in the bush is very deep in most places except out in the open, I sink down about a foot in the fresh fallen snow to stand on the base of two feet of old snow and another six inch layer of ice that has never melted from the ice storm we had near our Christmas, oh yes great for snowshoeing but I have to say it is hard work while I struggle to pack those trails down. Imagine a gigantic stair climber machine at the gym and lifting your legs a foot high with every step. It is a real workout. When I do manage to get back to the house I can certainly “feel the burn” and I for the most part love it, it transports my thoughts from the struggles I sometimes think are overwhelming. Thinking of family and friends who are certainly struggling with life right now, weighs heavy on my heart. I trudge through the snow wishing there was more I could do.

I have been following the deer trails and I can see where they have been also struggling. With the deep snow and that impenetrable layer of ice below there is not much for them to eat. They wander from cedar tree to cedar tree stripping the bark and eating the greenery. The snow under the cedars is littered with the cedar bits, and if there happens to be a bare patch of ground where the snow and ice have not yet covered it is stripped to bare frozen ground. Deer cannot easily digest hay and it has to be a pretty bad winter for them to mingle with our cows and eat the hay. There have only been two winters in my 35 years here on the farm that I have seen that so I do know it is not as bad as those winters long ago, yet.


I make a point every morning I venture out to break a trail over top of the deer tracks so they will not have to struggle to get everywhere they need to be. I cannot follow every trail because as we all know some struggles must be tackled alone but I help where I can. It is a lot like life….. we all have struggles and we should accept the help when we are offered but most struggles at one time or another need to be gone through alone so that we can learn to handle them if they happen to come around again. A helping hand is always an appreciated thing but ultimately, to live we must also learn to cope and find our own way.


I tromp through the snow breaking trail and circle around and come back to where I began, I could see how the deer have already been following behind and used my helping hand but there was a point where they ventured out on their own path in another direction to find what they need to get through their own struggles.


 I came across where four deer had bedded down for the night to rest so they will be able to tackle life again tomorrow, one step or one day at a time. It will all work out we both just have to believe that and keep going. Oh I love it back here, the lessons are endless.


Later

54 comments:

  1. It's difficult to ask for help when you are struggling, but steadfastly independent by nature. I've found it takes strength to reach out for help -- which is the opposite of what I want to do! I hope you know I, we, are here to listen if you ever need it. xo

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  2. I hope your worries are eased this month- I have some of my own that are almost making me sick with worry.
    I didn't realize you had so much snow! I can take the cold- it's that wind that gets me every time!

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  3. Good Morning Buttons
    I am the same way I love getting lost in the nature and scenery here in our valley and forest to clear my head , it is the best medicine and therapy there is for me the walking up and down hills climbing over fallen trees in our wooded area drudging through the snow it's better then any gym walking natural terrain is the best and fun , some how nature puts everything in perspective for me and helps me cope with the day to day things of life especially when I take a moment to stop look, listen and smell the land. Lovely post and photos . It is very windy and cold here today with snow falling , hope it settles down by the afternoon so Miggs and I can get outside to enjoy this wonderful nature of ours today . Thanks for sharing . Have a good day !

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  4. I am glad you have been able to make it out to your favorite place! This winter has been like no other I can remember.

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  5. Hugs to you Buttons! I'm sorry it's been rough...and will pray that 2014 will be better than expected. You are so kind to your friends...I'm sure the deer are curious about that kind lady who brakes trails for them!

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  6. Luckily it's still very early in 2014 and maybe all the bad stuff is just happening at the beginning as opposed to being spread out :)

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  7. I'm glad that you're able to find some relief from your struggles while trekking through the bush. 2014 may still prove to be easier - it's early, yet. Sending you a big hug!

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  8. I'm sorry January was such a rough month. I hope February brings some new delights in your walks!

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  9. i enjoy OE thought - get the bad over with in the begin of the year & the end of the 2014 will be too great!! i am thinking the weather has to get better ... i am so ready for spring ... i did not get my snow i wished for ... so let's move on & hope for spring time. i am ready to do some yard projects & other stuff. sending ya big big hugs. ( :

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  10. The snow has never melted totally here either so there are many struggling animals. Sad for sure!

    I hope 2014 improves for you, Buttons. It's so difficult to live with a heavy heart.

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  11. well thank goodness january is over!

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  12. Glad to read you have been getting out into the woods, B. I know how it helps you calm your body and soul. I plan to have a short post today for all those snowbound, and in need of cheering up, for whatever troubles them.

    vic303

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  13. And I love it, that you are able to absorb the life lessons, which living where you do, gives...

    Not everyone would be able to do so. Or perhaps, not everyone would notice or try.

    Gentle hugs,
    Tessa~

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  14. Thinking of you Miss B. Prayers and a big ole hug to you!

    Your thoughts on life are so grounded and inspiring. You and I think alike, we are realistic optimists.

    A friend told me I see the forest and all the good in it. When I am struggling I tend to focus on the dead tree in front of me. You may be struggling now, Miss B, but your blog posts prove you know the beauty in the forest and choose to look for it.

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  15. It does make for lovely photos, but I really am tired of winter. I woke to yet another -30C day and I almost cried. Time for some gentler weather...

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  16. Those are very calming and strenghtening thoughts. Thanks for that Buttons.

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  17. I bet it really is a workout walking through all that snow! How nice of you to help out the deer with their tracks. You are so kind.

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  18. Nature is a great teacher, and a great healer.

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  19. I am praying fair weather and warm skies for you, my friend. Sending big hugs your way~

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  20. wonderful, wonderful places for walking. I love walking the snowy wood.

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  21. The snow and cold seem never ending here too Buttons! I am hoping that all of your problems and worries are soon a thing of the past.

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  22. i know you're glad for the moisture the snow brings for your pastures, but it makes for tough going for you and beast. hang in there.

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  23. Sorry to hear you are struggling with some issues. Glad you are able to get out in the bush which helps clear your mind. Sending prayers and good thoughts to you.

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  24. Thank you for sharing the lessons that you have learned from nature--from the landscape and the animals. I'm sorry you're struggling now. Please know that I am thinking of you and am here if you need to talk. Hugs to you, sweet B.

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  25. I always go to nature, too, when the weather allows. January has been a rough month for me also. I hope whatever is burdening you, that you will find peace. Hugs!

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  26. Your relation with the deer is quite delightful. You help them — they appear before you!

    I hope that the struggles will quiet themselves. Blessings and Bear hugs!

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  27. I love reading how you help out the deer! That is so kind of you, you have such a good heart. I often go to nature for comfort and a getaway from worries, after first praying, of course. Prayers and good thoughts go out for those troublesome issues in your life right now. Take care!

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  28. January certainly was rough here too Buttons. I'm really glad to be able to get out every day again. Something about tromping through the bush without crazy distractions seems to make it easier to think clearer. We've been going over and over the same trails as well, hoping to make movement easier for our woodland friends.

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  29. Even those who are wise and kind, like you, must struggle sometimes...I'm glad you have the solace nature provides. Good is coming.

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  30. Sorry to hear you are dealing with struggles, but glad to know you have the solace of nature right out your front door. It always puts things in perspective. Sending love and positive thoughts your way. And a hug. xo Karen

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  31. i always worry about wildlife during these bitter cold winters. especially when we have a lot of snow!!

    all we got was rain....

    beautiful images!!

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  32. i forgot to add my hug, i hate that you are struggling!!

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  33. B,

    The end of last year (around holidays) and the beginning of this have been not what we expected. We both are dealing with these struggle the best way we know how. Those walks in the woods, sitting within mother nature, fishing, and just being will help get both of us through these challenges. I'm sending hugs and prayers to you my friend.
    Love you, Sandy

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  34. Nah, 2014 will be a wonderful year - you can just say that your winter of 2014 was whack - the spring will be better, and then oMGawd SUMMER!!!! yep. seasons. the only way to live.

    now we just need to tell the tax man that ;)

    hugs. xoxox

    ps more herefords. more. with hats.

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  35. You've had your share of struggles recently. It was sweet of you to clear a path for the deer and interesting that they followed for a short while before going their own way. It's a beautiful analogy for life, as you say. xoxo

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  36. We need help from time to time. However we are also made to give help like you are giving the deer when you make trails for them. The whole thing is a balance. sometimes we need more help than we give and sometimes we give more help than we receive.

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  37. It is beautiful too. I think the work out must be incredible and I think feeling that cold fresh air must be so wonderful. I always think that being outside helps so much. I am so glad you have the gift of those places to walk.

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  38. I'm glad to see you're out enjoying those snowshoes. Even though it is a challenge, getting out in the cold weather is one way to learn and LIVE.

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  39. My heart goes out to all of the animals and birds that are struggling through you very tough winter.

    Kindness is a gem that sparkles in the snow...it's good of you to do what you do for them.

    Jen

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  40. That must sure have been a sight to see deer eating with the herd of cows B.
    Always find it special when I see a spot where deer have bedded down for the night .

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  41. Your story reminds me of the Little House on the Prairie book, "The Long Winter." Wishing you much strength and courage and patience as you weather this. XO

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  42. I do hope you don't have to struggle too much this year.
    You have a pending Wedding, and that is exciting.
    Take care, Hugs M xx

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  43. I admire your ability to share such deep seated feelings, they resonate deeply. I was taught life is or can be how we choose to look at it, easier said than done but a good philosophy to keep in the fore front, best wishes for a calmer February-Nature is a wonderful friend, healer, all of that exercise is good for the soul. Hugs.

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  44. Sorry to hear that you still have worries and struggles in2014. nature is a good place to be to blow away those worries if only for a while. My laid back son in law who is struggling trying to make it as an actor always says to my daughter. "Worrying doesn't help overcome the struggle it just makes it worse" I think he might be right. Winter doesn't help depression either. Hopefully you'll feel better in spring.

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  45. Worries and cold. Such a nasty mixture.

    Now worry and spring? More easily handled.

    Hang in there, Buttons!

    Pearl

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  46. What a wonderful, thoughtful post, Buttons. I hope this year brings you peace in your mind and heart.

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  47. I'm not sure I'd have thought to break trail for the deer. That's awesome. Sending good thoughts your way.

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  48. What better way to draw near our Creator than to spend time with all he created. I see His fingerprints in the tree bark and patterns on the leaves, the provision of berries and such for the wildlife. One can't help but be at peace.

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  49. I love that you help the deer out! I am hoping it won't be much longer now B...rain forecast this week!

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  50. Grace, I hope that the rest of 2015 just keeps on getting better, and that it snowballs into a wonderful year for you.

    Jen

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  51. So much snow still, sending good wishes your way and all the best for your coping strategies in your struggles. Hugs xx :D)

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  52. Hopefully you are in a better place in 2015 than 2014!

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  53. I know it can't be easy to make yourself get out there. But Way to go Girl. I do believe "just like you said" nature heals us. I'm very lucky that we can now follow the good weather, Most of the time. But there are lots of folks that would go stir crazy what we are doing. but for now its the life for me.

    Big Hugs my friend, Hang in there warmer days are ahead,

    My Happy Place

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  54. I hope 2015 is shaping up to be a wonderful year for you, B!

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