If it is the truth,
what does it matter who says it.
I do think you know what this means. Or do you? Sometimes things are not always as they appear to be.
“A Runner”, as I had always believed, is a person who may be seen running trails, sidewalks or the back roads everywhere, and in any kind of weather. They may also be seen wearing fancy running shoes and clothing that wicks away sweat. They may or may not have earbuds in the ears, but always have a look of sheer determination and joyful bliss on their face. They are more than likely in top physical form.
I am pretty sure you have figured out by now, that this is not even close to the “runner” I have been referred to as of late.
After my Mom’s funeral, a familiar feeling came over me. I immediately “high tailed” it out of town. Apparently everyone who knows me knew that it would happen. “She is a runner” my sister told everyone who enquired about my where-abouts. No apologies were given, that is just who she is, was her thought. It is very true. When times of trouble or emotional upsets have come along, I deal with it as best I can …… then I run. I have no idea why but it is who I am.
There has been a lot of running (trips away) since that week in April. I am pretty sure those who read this blog regularly had figured out that something was up. My posting was a far cry from what it used to be. This may change, but then again maybe not. I wanted to inform you that I have decided the “running” part is over for now (at least till we get through the haying season).
I must admit I had quite a few adventures, and I did accomplish things that I do hope to share with you all very soon. I have not just been running with ear buds in my ears and ignoring what was going on around me. I have been acutely aware, even though it looked like I was not. I guess, this is somewhat similar to the real runners we see, they know where they are heading. I have been thinking a lot about where I will be going from here, and making plans. Those plans are coming together and as soon as I know what is going on for sure, I will be sharing it with all of you.
In the mean time I have been in contact with many people that I had forgotten, people I have never known, and people I hope to get to know. I have seen things I did not know possible. I have also let myself concentrate on “me” for a bit without the usual guilt, about my letting others down.
There is nothing wrong with being a “runner” but it is always a good thing to know that you need to slow down or stop completely to enjoy what is right in front of you. After all, “Running yourself ragged” as my Grandma used to call it, can and will only hurt you in the long run, and that will not help anyone.
If you are “A runner”, of either description, I believe that you will always get to the destination you were meant to be, at the exact time you were meant to be there.
Sometimes running is all you know, and things may not always be as they appear. Life is like that.