Friday, June 5, 2015

Clash of the Farmer/Town Girl.....

As thou wilt; what thou wilt; when thou wilt.
                                       Thomas a’ Kempis


I have been farming for a very long time now. With farming there can be isolation, meaning I spend a lot of time alone and doing the work that needs to be done, while my Hero works a fulltime job. When he comes home there is always more work to do, and we try to get it done together every evening and weekend. This time of year I have to say requires the most work from both of us. This sharing of work has worked well for both of us, the entire time we have lived on this farm.

“We” are getting older, I really hate to admit that, but that is the truth. My Hero would never admit that, but I think now is the time for at least one of us to be honest here. This means I, (I am not going to speak for him) have slowed down a bit, and sometimes those easy tasks have now become more difficult. I keep up with the daily work but I have to admit it takes me longer, and that labouring has rewarded me with aches and pains that keep me miserable and awake at night. All part of normal aging, (yes I know that is what you are thinking) but, some of you may remember that I also suffer from fibromyalgia. 


This hidden monster had unfortunately, in the middle of our terrible winter, reared its ugly head once again. This being said, I have continued to keep busy, and trying not to sit around letting it win. That way of thinking, has always been my mission, since I was first diagnosed. My arms were always the problem but now my legs seem to be joining the fibro team. This makes me very frustrated, and frankly a little frightened about my future in farming or my quality of life in general.

Reluctantly, I have let My Hero do more of the heavy work around here, (mostly all alone), like fixing the fences, because I cannot lift nor hold those heavy rails anymore. He also does the majority of the wood hauling and cutting now. I have been trying to find other ways to keep myself busy, and keeping my muscles and joints from ceasing up and quitting on me.

This is where this whole pole walking thing came into my life. I needed to get my arms into better shape, hopefully strengthening them. Honestly, I have also been craving more social interaction as I age. Isolation is a good thing, but I seem to not need as much of it as I used to. This could be from growing up in a house full of twelve people and those memories coming back, I have no idea. 

My pole walking class is full of fun loving women. There are many of them suffering from fibromyalgia as well, and the support I get from this class is hard for me to explain. On my bad days, I do still try to get to this class and walk. Yesterday I could not use the poles, no one judged or told me I could not do the class, they encouraged me to do what I could. We laugh and share life with each other as we walk. Before I knew it we were told that we had walked 3.5 kilometers. Sure I hurt, we probably all hurt, but we did it and I am happy about that. Motivation, is always a good thing, I would say.


OK now; where does the clash between my town life and my farming life come into play here? After that very long walk yesterday I came home and wanted to curl up and eat ice cream (don’t judge) but I could not, there was much to do around the farm. After a lovely dinner My Hero and I decided it was time to move our cows to another pasture. You know where this is going, don’t you?
After many more kilometers of walking through the bush, checking the fences with heavy clothes on protecting from ticks, and possibly sweating pounds off, we let our very happy cows over to enjoy the new pasture.


I did it, I am proud that I did it, and I will continue at this pace as long as I can. I do truly believe that we all have obstacles that we have to overcome, or at the very least come to terms with. I for one now do know, that a support system makes dealing with it, that much easier. Thank you ladies.

 I am taking today off. If anyone asks I am not home. Happy Birthday Pearl.


Later

34 comments:

  1. True grit Gracie, true grit! The determination, and spirit are inspiring. It's great that something so seemingly simple like pole walking can do so much good.

    Enjoy your day off!

    Jen

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  2. Good Morning B! You have that farmie girl constitution and prove it every day. I also love living on a farm and at age 71, am still hanging in there too. The important thing is to keep moving. Hope you enjoyed the ice cream and your day off.

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  3. You did well to walk as far as you did. Hugs M xox

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  4. I have the big F too. Detest it!

    Here is a blog I follow that has had good results in taking minerals. This makes sense!
    http://fieldofmydreams.blogspot.com/2015/04/thinking-todayabout-health.html

    I have lost my want-to...I may give them a try.

    Have a blessed day.

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  5. You are so awesome how you keep going. I know what you mean though about slowing down. This is a quote that I recite to myself everyday, at least a 1000 times a day. "Don't let what you can't do, stop you from doing what you can do." Keeps me going, and I feel less guilty about the things I can't do anymore. You are a great example to us all.

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  6. It is great that you persist with the fibro. This is also my daily struggle with also, the fibro. Wonderful images. Your blog finally showed up on the blogroll. Missed reading your thoughts.

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  7. A positive attitude always makes burdens lighter.

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  8. I feel your frustration Grace. Your tenacity never ceases to amaze me! This past winter certainly seems to have had an ON switch for many of us FM suffers. Movement sure does help though doesn't it

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  9. Very inspiring post! I am a city girl turned country girl, and I thought I was pretty tough, but I can't carry your briefcase! Kudos to you! I hope you enjoy your day off. Enjoyed your pictures.

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  10. I wish you didn't have to deal with this, but you have such a good attitude, and the determination, that I'm sure you will not let it win! You and your Hero both inspire me...enjoy your day off...you deserve it!!

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  11. Brett and I have this conversation a lot. We are on the flip side of you -- I work full time in town and he works full time on the ranch. And, he's eleven years older than me and he feels it more than ever in his joints and back. Its easier in the summer when the days are long and I can help after work but winters are very hard on him. Its a tough rope to walk -- loving the ranching life and worrying that you can physically keep it up.

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  12. Love your determination.
    For me, it comes down to deciding whether I want a life or an existence. Life costs more and hurts more. And pays bigger dividends.

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  13. Hey Buttons ... This is a very inspiring post. I'm sorry to hear that nasty fibro is causing you more pain lately, but good for you getting on with things and also joining the walking group. Be kind to yourself ... sending continued warm wishes from California.

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  14. Button, I can so relate to having pain, growing older and slowing down. I've been noticing decreased strength and Like you I keep going because if I stop, I may ceased up like a rusty piece of metal. You have a lot of courage to keep on going with Fibromyalgia.
    Take care,
    Hugs,
    JB

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  15. It seems that there's always something to get in the way of something being easy or normal. Yes, plain old aging. However, you're fighting the good fight and keeping a good attitude .

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  16. Nice to hear that you press on! It is important in life.

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  17. Friends make the world just a little easier to tackle ;)

    xoxox

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  18. You have the grit, courage, and determination it takes to live with fibro; you are what you believe!

    I'm with you on being over isolation; I used to crave it, now I've had enough and crave interaction with people. Hope you enjoyed your day off!

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  19. I don't know anything about pole walking but it sounds like you are not about to let very much get you down. I agree with the isolation....while I would go kooky if I didn't get some alone time on a daily basis, a little goes a long way. Maybe you could have some of your pole walking ladies over for coffee one time?

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  20. I also have Fibromyalgia and have suffered from it since the 90's. It's not fun and I find it is slowing me down even more each year. I know exercise is the best thing for it but some days it's just too painful to walk or work outside, or by the time I've done either one I'm really in pain. I've not heard about pole walking. Did you talk about it in a post I missed? What does it entail? Is it walking with those hiking poles? Take care and get you rest when you can. I know the life of a farmer is difficult with long hard days. Blessings. Pam

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  21. the hubs and i have always worked together and i love that!! our work is different but requires being together all the time and that is the best part about it!! i have a good balance in my life of peeps, fun and quiet time alone.

    we are all climbing a mountain....having a positive attitude helps but you can't will things to work. i always thought, if i try hard enough, anything can be done but that's just not true!!!

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  22. Press on or Pole on. I broke my back last July and have been in pain ever since but I am not going to let it get me down. I have lots of chores to do and while I am slower I will do them. Bob welcomes the help no matter how slow I have become.
    Take care and just be happy.
    MB

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  23. We find that all things take longer but when we help each other out "things" go better and faster! Teamwork!! Keep on keeping on...I know it must be difficult for you some days:(

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  24. Button, this is precisely the sort of encouragement I needed today. While I read it, my friend of 50 years, who is 78, phoned and asked how my medical issues are going --like he doesn't have any, pshaw! I'm still learning how to deal with an aging self but the stabilizers I've encountered today give me strength I didn't know I had --admittedly, I need lots of reminding. In short, thanks. My compliments and admiration.

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  25. There comes a time for all of us when we must face the inevitable "slowing down." Sending you hugs as you deal with fibromyalgia. xo Nellie

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  26. We all need a little ice cream to get us through sometimes...

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  27. Walk on my friend . . . Your pole and arm strengthening gives me inspiration . . .

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  28. Hello, I came to your blog from Far Side's. I'm sure you have done lots of research about Fibro. but I'm going to include this link. http://www.progressivehealth.com/paleo-diet-for-fibromyalgia.htm I don't suffer from it, but as a fan of the Paleo style diet that I have switched to, after completing a Whole 30, I thought it was an interesting read. Best of luck!

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  29. Yes, a support system is very important, I agree! I'm so glad you've found a few members of the group with the same problem. You can help each other, often by just listening and understanding.

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  30. I know how tough you find it - but you have such an inspirational outlook! And here I am not even getting up from the sofa on many days! I am glad that you started pole walking and that you get so much from it x

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  31. you have a super attitude and that is what makes you complete these challenges. Well done!

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  32. Living with pain makes for a hard row to hoe. It's surprising how much a network of friends helps. Stopping is not an option, as you said, we need to keep moving. Hugs!

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