Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Dark clouds

Our grand business in life is not to see what lies dimly at a distance,
but to do what lies clearly at hand.
                                          Thomas Carlyle


It is six in the morning, and I hopped out of bed because it was dark outside. This is a great thing in my eyes. The sun is not shining, and the sky is dark. Could this be the rain we have been desperately waiting for?

It has been a long time between blog posts for me, and I have no excuse other than the fact I have been busy. By the time my day is over I plop down in bed as early as I can get into it and then drift into a dead sleep. Well, until it turns into another restless night’s sleep. Those little things, that seem so very small in significance during the day, you know the ones that nag you but you know will pass, always seem so huge in their power, and so daunting during the long nights.


I had a visit yesterday with my Auntie M, she mentioned how much she missed my blog posts and how they made her happy. I love to hear this. My blogging has always made me happy as well. To share the happy things in my life and know that my world can make others smile was something I really loved. I could imagine the smiles my posts brought.

But, honestly, there are a few bumps in my road and some of the happy seemed to have gone missing. I felt that I could not be responsible for the happiness of others at that time. The pressure was one of those things that had me toss and turn during the night. I decided I would write when the words came, and so here I am again. This may not be all happy, but life is good, and life is busy as far as moving forward through it.


My Hero did get all that demolished from the storm fence rebuilt and it looks incredible. He works so hard. There was no second crop of hay to worry about so there has been lots of time to do other things. We are feeding our winters hay, but I believe things will work out. The water hole, well the one left water hole is holding its own. That is a good thing because many fellow farmers have not been as fortunate.

We are now selling the house my Mom lived in, and I am sure many of you know how much work goes into that and you also know the emotions that get stirred up. It has turned out to be a good thing. The stirring of memories and the writing of those thoughts has me ten thousand words into a story. I have no idea where it will go from there but I am enjoying the process of the writing. It is taking time from my blog posts but I think it is something I need to do.


I am excited as we have had special visitors here on the farm. One very special little girl from the city the one who really does love the farm is very close to walking now. This means that there are many exciting, be that long distance times ahead. We also had visitors from the Netherlands. A young lady who has not been here for a very long time is now a teenager and still looked forward to feeding and having a visit with Bossy2 and her friends. A tractor ride, which was a big hit last time and I had helped her drive has now turned into the ride where I was a passenger and she did all the driving. She is going to be very prepared to drive those busy streets back in Holland now.

Yes, my friends’ life is busy, it is exciting, and a bit worrisome and sometimes downright stressful but we are going to enjoy every little moment because that is what life is all about. Grab hold of that good stuff, even if it is a tiny handful and it will get you through, I have no doubt about that.

Oh boy, it is still dark out. I am getting excited now. This may be the dark cloud that will open up and drop that rain that is desperately needed.


See you again soon my friends. It is surely going to slow down around here eventually. I do hope your life is as crazy busy and exciting as mine. Hugs


Later 

21 comments:

  1. glad you've had some good visits and visitors. love the fenceline. good luck with the house sale!

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  2. it's good to hear your life is buy and exciting. The worrisome bits will pass.
    It must be hard selling your mum's home, so many memories to sift through.

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  3. "Our grand business in life is not to see what lies dimly at a distance,
    but to do what lies clearly at hand.
    Thomas Carlyle"


    Wise words!


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  4. Oh, I hope you get a long, steady rain!! I'm sure the cows would love to get a nice shower, as well as the ground getting a much needed drink! You must have had a great time with your little visitor. Almost walking already? Where does time go?!

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  5. I enjoy both your words & photos of life on your farm!
    Here's hoping that much needed rain comes!

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  6. Thanks for the update and hope you got that rain.

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  7. I also look forward to darkness at 6:00 am, but not always for rainy skies. Darkness at that hour means cool weather is just around the corner. And we need some cool breezes. Linda@Wetcreek Blog

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  8. I hope you did get the rain.
    Selling your mama's house? Been there, and remember the tears, the laughter, and the memories.
    Take care of yourself. We will be here when you are ready to return.

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  9. Settling an estate is an incredible amount of work. and for you it involves emotional attachment to a house. As for me? I have four canes from my dad.

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  10. Ooh, I sure hope you got some rain. It has been on and off here, and that makes me happy, even though I still cannot get out and about as I want to. It is so frustrating when one is not 100%. I'm glad your sweet little one is coming...I know you are excited!

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  11. Happy to hear and see you again . . .
    Life continually brings each of us time to reevaluate, assess, decide . . .
    How fortunate we stay tuned and ready for those moments . . .
    All the best Grace . . .

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  12. So glad that you are blogging when you can - life does get so busy. I can imagine the work really never ends on a farm. Settling your Mother's estate must be an emotional and exhausting task in itself. So nice to have sweet visitors, though. I hope it rains for you there. We have too much of it this year. xx K

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  13. So good to read a post of yours again. Glad you've had some visitors and that the fence is fixed. I pray you get some much needed rain.

    Love, hugs and prayers ~ FlowerLady

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  14. If life had no ups and downs, the straight road would be incredibly boring. I hope you get the rain you need and that you have enough feed to get you through until next harvest.

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  15. I do hope the clouds open up and give you loads of rain! Sounds like you've been incredibly busy - thank you for checking in!

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  16. Hey Buttons - That's great to hear you have a family story in the works. I bet one day that little girl will love to read it. Sounds busy at your end with lots of positives mixed in with the stressors.

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  17. We waited too and it has finally arrived not a lot, but at least it's RAIN!...:)JP

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  18. Glad to have you back, B. Your thoughts and words are flowing well. Glad you had those visitors, especially Little Miss, to bring back some happiness to you.

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  19. Last time I read your blog you couldn't sleep in your bed so things do look like they are improving for you. Well done for sounding happy with your life even though you are having stressful times. I hope you keep improving and that it rains soon. I like ""Grab hold of that good stuff" a great piece of advice.

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  20. Love the quote! I hope you got some much-needed rain, that the dark cloud wasn't just a tease. How lovely to have those guests to come share in the joy of your farm. We had our own small business in another state when my mom passed. My older brothers and their wives did all the sorting and fixing at her house, so I missed out on that part. I'm glad your got your story, and yes, you do need to make that writing a priority for the future generations.

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  21. 10 000 words into a story! Now that is exciting, I can't wait to hear more about this in the future!

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