Our grand business in life is not to see what lies dimly at a distance,
but to do what lies clearly at hand.
It is six in the morning, and I hopped out of bed because it was dark outside. This is a great thing in my eyes. The sun is not shining, and the sky is dark. Could this be the rain we have been desperately waiting for?
It has been a long time between blog posts for me, and I have no excuse other than the fact I have been busy. By the time my day is over I plop down in bed as early as I can get into it and then drift into a dead sleep. Well, until it turns into another restless night’s sleep. Those little things, that seem so very small in significance during the day, you know the ones that nag you but you know will pass, always seem so huge in their power, and so daunting during the long nights.
I had a visit yesterday with my Auntie M, she mentioned how much she missed my blog posts and how they made her happy. I love to hear this. My blogging has always made me happy as well. To share the happy things in my life and know that my world can make others smile was something I really loved. I could imagine the smiles my posts brought.
But, honestly, there are a few bumps in my road and some of the happy seemed to have gone missing. I felt that I could not be responsible for the happiness of others at that time. The pressure was one of those things that had me toss and turn during the night. I decided I would write when the words came, and so here I am again. This may not be all happy, but life is good, and life is busy as far as moving forward through it.
My Hero did get all that demolished from the storm fence rebuilt and it looks incredible. He works so hard. There was no second crop of hay to worry about so there has been lots of time to do other things. We are feeding our winters hay, but I believe things will work out. The water hole, well the one left water hole is holding its own. That is a good thing because many fellow farmers have not been as fortunate.
We are now selling the house my Mom lived in, and I am sure many of you know how much work goes into that and you also know the emotions that get stirred up. It has turned out to be a good thing. The stirring of memories and the writing of those thoughts has me ten thousand words into a story. I have no idea where it will go from there but I am enjoying the process of the writing. It is taking time from my blog posts but I think it is something I need to do.
I am excited as we have had special visitors here on the farm. One very special little girl from the city the one who really does love the farm is very close to walking now. This means that there are many exciting, be that long distance times ahead. We also had visitors from the Netherlands. A young lady who has not been here for a very long time is now a teenager and still looked forward to feeding and having a visit with Bossy2 and her friends. A tractor ride, which was a big hit last time and I had helped her drive has now turned into the ride where I was a passenger and she did all the driving. She is going to be very prepared to drive those busy streets back in Holland now.
Yes, my friends’ life is busy, it is exciting, and a bit worrisome and sometimes downright stressful but we are going to enjoy every little moment because that is what life is all about. Grab hold of that good stuff, even if it is a tiny handful and it will get you through, I have no doubt about that.
Oh boy, it is still dark out. I am getting excited now. This may be the dark cloud that will open up and drop that rain that is desperately needed.
See you again soon my friends. It is surely going to slow down around here eventually. I do hope your life is as crazy busy and exciting as mine. Hugs