Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Stress and Sisters!

  “ A little while with grief and laughter,
      And then the day will close;
 The shadows gather… what comes after
      No man knows.”
                        Donald Robert Perry Marquis

 What a stressful few days, I just want to curl up into a ball and just stay in bed.
 The coyotes are back and killed two more calves. These were not newborns but a couple of months old. This is very scary to me, as nothing seems to be stopping them. I am getting very tired of all this death.
 I have spent months and months, hours and hours keeping these calves safe, and now I am just frustrated and mad. We took these calves through all the obstacles, the birthing process, the feeding, the weather, and every other thing that came up. We were doing well after the hurdles we had to jump. I got attached.
 This is the time of year they should be running around looking for that first grass, exploring this new world on these warm spring days. I should be watching them through my window and smiling, remembering the work and the accomplishments of a job well done.
 Instead I am left finding body parts strewn through the bush and agitated Mothers pacing and mooing.
 My Hero is checking and feeding them now, I am growing weary of the whole process. There is only so much I can handle. I am very emotional and am having a very hard time sleeping. I am constantly worrying which calf may be next.
 We have moved the cattle up near the house; I can see them from my window. I remember the ones that are now missing. The ones I took care of everyday.
 Hunters are out trying to get these rogue coyotes. They are more dangerous if they are taking calves that size down. They are probably feeding young ones. This will become a chronic problem, so much so we could lose our whole herd. Desperate times.

 Ok enough about the stressor. I had many errands to run today, this required a lot of driving. I stopped at my Mothers briefly to say Hi. My sister P was there she could see I was stressed, she insisted that she go with me to run the remaining errands. She knows me very well.
 I have four sisters and can always count on one or all of them when I am in need. I love this. It makes the bad times seem easier if you can share it with someone that has known you all your life.
 We ran the errands and stopped for lunch, it was two o’clock and all I had eaten was a banana all day. It was nice to just sit and chat. She told me I had to take it easy and just vent my frustrations anyway I can. She suggested yelling at the top of my lungs or punching a pillow. I am now trying to figure out how to yell at the coyotes I have yet to see, or punch them.
 The point being she made me laugh and forget things if only for a couple of hours.
 I am home now scanning the cows with the binoculars counting. I am waiting for My Hero to get home to take a closer look and feed them some more. I just can’t do it.
 I think if that guy with the $800,000 showed up right now I could not pack fast enough. This is starting to sound like Our Journey back in the bad old days.
 Oh well things will be better tomorrow and I will be back out there. Farming is tough and you just have to push yourself through the bad times.
 Thanks P.



  1. These things too will pass...but not for awhile. I feel for you.

  2. We too have trouble with coyotes. That is the reason we don't have goats....

  3. This post makes my stomach ache! I am so sorry about the calves...and would be sick too.

  4. We've lost some cats in the past to coyotes. I haven't heard them yet in the fields, but I will soon. Sometimes they come right up to the yard.

    I'm so sorry about your loss of the calves. I realize not only is this sad for you, but the financial loss is great as well.

    Hang in there. I'll be thinking of you. :)

  5. Oh this is a stress alright.
    Sorry about the loss of calves and all your hard work.

    BUT I am so VERY glad you have that many sisters!!!! They DO make us laugh:)
    I call mine just to get through a day with a chuckle sometimes:)
    Hang in there....

  6. terrible. we have coyotes here that get very daring and bold and will try to attack our dogs. i know losing calves that are several months old must be traumatic. i hope the hunters can cut down the population as they're obviously very strong...

  7. I know that you are smaller than a calf- so be safe. Sorry things are so scary right now.

  8. I'm so sorry for your loss,I know how you feel,I too stay awake listening for them,making sure everyone is safe.
    We had a coyote here two nights ago that would not back down from my DH and my two dogs,the more he yelled at it the louder the coyote yipped backed and got closer.
    He was about twenty feet from the cows and DH,40ft from the main barn,other methods were used to scare him,about 5 ran off.
    Last night they were back.
    It seems our coyotes have taken a turn for the worse,far more aggressive and brazen then ever.
    our friend has lost calves to the same pack,they were a few weeks old.
    So heartbreaking.
    Thinking of you.

  9. I'm so sorry for your loss of calves. That is horrible. We have coyotes here but haven't bothered anything yet. It really worries me though. At night it sounds like there's many out there when they start their howling. I hope it gets better for you.

  10. Although the loss of those lovely babies is sad, you are so blessed to have sisters who are close to share the load with your mother and to cheer you in rough times. Strong family shoulders are priceless.

    Hoping for an end to the thieving coyotes--SOON.

  11. Sorry to hear this...I would not be able to sleep...walking the floors,listening...Yesterday, your post was so overwhelming to me I thought all day about it...and still would not be able to make a decision...~~HUGS~~

  12. Harrowsmith had an article in February on how daring Coyotes have become. No longer fear of humans.I hear then howling but haven't had a problem in years. That said the elk are in the second field back this morning. The bull is huge, want him away from our cows.

  13. I'm so sorry! I hope those hunters can find the coyotes to prevent this from happening!

  14. Wow. I'm so glad I live here and we don't have those miserable coyotes. I think I'd be sitting out there in the dark with a gun....waiting al night. Maa.

  15. So sorry for you. Hugs.


  16. Damn those coyotes. Just damn em!


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