Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Searching and Singing! (3 of 3)

There is a great difference between knowing a thing and understanding it.
You can know a lot about something and not really understand it.
      Charles Franklin Kettering

The pounding rain has dwindled down to a trickling rain so I pull myself up off this rock and head back to the clearing before the next bush. I am not ready to leave the comfort of the bush yet. A Red Tailed Hawk comes swooping down from high atop an Oak tree screeching, I always love this. He is so beautiful; he lands back in a Maple tree keeping a close eye on my movements. I head into the trees with my eyes to the ground “Hello” (just in case). I pick up some Turkey feathers lying on the ground, a blogger friend Laura believes they are a message from someone, and I believe she is right. I always thought the Hawk sightings were a message too I need to believe this. I smile.

“If you go out in the woods today, dah dah dah dah” I smile I am singing it has not been lost it had been waiting for the weight to be lifted that had been holding it down inside. I just needed to forget about those challenging thoughts sitting up in my kitchen, waiting. “You better be dah dah dah”, maybe someday I will remember all the words.

This bush has always been here soothing my smallest and my biggest challenges in this life, I have always found the answers I needed. This bush shall be here when I need it even when what I am worried about is gone. It has gotten me through in spite of my own actions, I just need to seek it out and wait. It is like my secret weapon. It gives me the confidence to believe in what I am doing and thinking, and rids me of the doubts that linger.

I hop over the slippery rail fence and wander into my good friend NDF’s tree paradise. I can see where the top rail of the rail fence is snapped in a downward angle. I was told by a hunter that the Deer could not do that and that it is from a Bear climbing up, sitting, and then hopping off, their weight snapping the rail. I never really believed it back then, I do now.

All of a sudden it starts to pour rain again “I’m singing in the rain” there it is again. This seems to be working.

I take my time as the steady drops of rain drip off my hood and run down my face. I carefully pull out my camera and try to cover it with my hood while taking a photo of the most beautiful dead Maple tree. It is still here for me to enjoy, standing tall, and a little haggard looking but waiting for it’s time to come when it will fall and rest on the forest floor. The circle of life.

I walk down the lane and notice a retaining wall made of flat rocks that was built probably one hundred or more years ago. I imagine the hard work that went into this. I imagine the old machinery being pulled across this gully by an old horse. I climb down the slippery bank to get a better look. Why have I never done this before? Why have I never taken the time?  The moss covered rocks make me smile “If your happy and you know it clap your hands” A childhood song pops into my head and floats effortlessly across my lips. “Clap Clap”

I make my way through the dense bush, it is really raining now and I cannot see very far in front of me, it is like a misty fog. I stumble upon half of my cows hiding in the bush trying to stay dry and avoiding the rain. I talk to them as I make my way stepping between them into the clearing just outside the bush. The other half of my cows are standing and lying in the pouring rain oblivious, and happy just like me.

I can see the house now; the rain is sure coming down. My wool sock covered pretty painted toes slosh around in my hiking shoes. My cold wet pants cling to my legs. My orange wind breaker is barely stopping the pounding rain from soaking through and the water drips down my face as I walk.

“Singing in the rain, I’m singing in the rain”. “Oh what a glorious feeling I’m happy again”.

Happy 84th Birthday Mom. I love you.


I will be taking a few days off, See you Monday. Hug B


  1. Happy Birthday to your Mum! Enjoy your time off and look forward to seeing you again on Monday next.

    Oh, and to fill in a few words of the song...

    If you go out in the woods today, you're in for a big surprise!
    If you go out in the woods today, you'd better go in disguise!
    'Cause it's the day, the wonderful day, the teddy bears have their picnic!

  2. Well....I just read all four posts this morning. I read one the other day, then again today. I sit here with a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes. I am so glad you have 'the bush' to go to and get away. It's obviously healing your heart. Keep doing what heals you, it'll help your Mom to see you happy. ANd tell her Happy Birthday from all of us bloggers. I hope you can take her outside today.

    Cindy Bee

  3. I love that beautiful mossy rock wall and what a great find of feathers you made. If you want the words to Teddy Bears Picnic go to you tube and chose the Ann Murray version...she sings so clearly you can make out each word.

  4. Happy Birthday to your Mom!!

  5. Happy Birthday to your mom!

    Enjoy your time off, Have fun!

  6. So happy to have my bestest friend back. I find pennies and beleive they are from a special lady in heaven, your turkey feathers, are from a very special man.
    Please give Mom a big hug and kiss from me.

    Love you, BA

  7. Beautiful pictures and a great story to go with it! I am so happy that you are getting much needed rain! Yippee!!
    I always though finding a feather was a message from an angel! So funny that you said that! It must be true!

    Have a great day!

  8. B. I just read back and so sorry about your mom...hoping things can turn around for her and you! Happy Birthday to her and wishing you both a great day of celebration! xoxo

  9. i read 2 and 3 together, another wonderful writing!!

    gorgeous images today!!

    happy birthday to mom, 84 exciting years!!

  10. Another beautiful post! I love that rock and moss covered wall.

    Happy Birthday to you wonderful Mom!

    Enjoy your time away, Buttons. I'll miss you.

  11. Yep. "Teddy Bear Picnic." You could probably Google the lyrics.

    Outstanding woods where you are. Love your photos of the mossy rock walls. I'm glad your getting rain and aren't afraid to go out in it to explore and share your finds.

  12. that rock wall is absolutely beautiful. so much effort...glad to hear you are receiving rain!

    i love the quote on this post too. so true.

    and a happy, happy birthday to mom! :)

  13. Nothing like nature to bring you back to life. It looks lovely out there.

  14. I wish I could sit and visit with you over coffee, Buttons! I think we are in a similar blah.

    First, Happy Birthday to your Mom. Enjoy this time you have together to celebrate life.

    Second, we all need a place to get away and clear our minds. Like you, I enjoy walking, but need to go home and see my folks a couple of times a year. It is amazing how getting away from it all can clear the mind.

    Hang in there! :)

  15. glad the rain lasted a while. the rock retaining wall is wonderful.

    a big hug to your sweet mother...

  16. I'm happy to hear you singing again... give mum a big hug for me. xo

  17. Happy happy Birthday Buttons Mom! You have raised a fine woodsy daughter ;)who is so very talented in so many ways and you have given many gifts of love over the years to your family, ones they will hold forever. We are wishing you many dreams where you are no longer tied to the weight of this world, but the memories of all the good days :)

    (and Buttons, you keep walking in the bush - your photos remind me of what is beautiful and right in this old world...)

  18. oooh I love that tree shot/capture. My gracious that is so inspiring. There is something about trees and me that I can't escape, nor want to escape.

  19. I'm quite good at reading backwards, but I do have a bit of a headache now. Nice singing voice by the way.

  20. Growing up in Sweden a long time ago, I learnt about nature, about its healing qualities, its ability to soothe frayed nerves, the peace that could be found in the forest or by the lake. I have seldom seen this described as beautifully as you have done here. You have brought me a gift today. And I want to wish your mom a happy birthday.

  21. O I do hope you do get the blessing of grandchildren. They are amazing and loving all at the same time. Thank you for your sweet words.

  22. we call them dry stone walls as they are built without mortar. There is a real art to build them, and are very common where we come from in England.

    Enjoy your few days away,


  23. Hey Buttons, Thx alot fore youre comment at my blog. I really like that foto of the tree!! And Happy Birthday To youre Mom ;-D

  24. Beautiful post in thoughts and captures and heart dear friend.
    I needed some of those words this morning.
    Hoping your mama had a wonderful day...and you as well.
    Take care of you. Hugs.

  25. Happy birthday to your mom! I love that rock wall - what a fun walk.

  26. Happy Birthday to you dear mum!!!
    It is good to hear that you are feeling a wee bit happier. It is always good to sing I think :))

  27. Happy birthday to your mom!!!!!!!!!! I am glad to hear about the rain :)

  28. beautiful pictures. hope your mom had a nice birthday

  29. Happy Birthday to your mom. Hope she had a blast. Your photos are wonderful. They are really interesting. I like that wall made from flat rock. Its so cool.
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  30. Happy talking to the trees.

    And I am one of the trees.

  31. the bush has done her work, buttons!

    it's good that you have a place to go...to wander...to be a part of all that surrounds you...to think, to cry, to laugh, to scream...to sing!
    to rejuvenate your soul. to calm.

    and i love your found 'message' feathers. (thanks for the mention).

    i have been reading of many birthdays this week. and now your mom, another Leo!! mine is the 19th. sam's is the 21st. Happy 84th (wow!) to your mom!! =)

  32. Oh the songs that you have singing in my head now:) What a fun day you had!
    (and happy birthday to your Mama)

  33. I am on our Hot Spot and my computer reception is terrible. Just wanted to stop over and say Hello....
    Happy Birthday to your Mom.... I am a little late, but better late than never.

    Enjoy your days off from blogging. We all need to do that once in awhile.

  34. Happy Birthday to your mom!


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