Thursday, July 28, 2016

A bit of worry, mixed with a drop of water.

I live on hope, and that I think do all who come into this world.
                                       Robert Seymour Bridges 

Yet another sleepless night where this farm girl could be seen sitting in her chair to watch the moon and to think.

Crunch, crunch, the sound under foot reminds this girl of a sound which seems to be so long ago, now. Where crisp cool mornings would find this girl outside surrounded by naked trees deep in the bush. Where a cold east wind would blow and she would be bundled up, with a smile on her face and that sound of crunch, crunch would be heard with every step that she took. Her snowshoes would hit the ground as she followed deer tracks in the snow. Seasons, as per usual have changed, many things have changed.

The crunch, crunch that comes from beneath her feet these days would be the grass that cries for rain. The pasture, where cows wander more than usual and are left to wonder where all the green had gone, lay before them. The leaves, on those same naked trees, which had been so lush and green, not too long ago, are now wilted and waiting with curled leaves. They are ready to catch the rain that has not come in far too long.

The hay has all been baled and brought home. The counter on the round baler reads 370. With no forecast of any rain in the distant future, there will probably not be a second crop. We may be in trouble. We are now feeding the left over hay from last year. The last rain on this farm was over a month ago. That was a good rain, a needed rain, but it came with high winds, hail and lots of damage.

I walked slowly across the grass as I listened to that crunch with a cool jug of water. My Hero had been outside working in the heat. It was almost comfortable, for a girl not working. At 28 degrees Celsius very early in the morning and forecasts of 41 degrees Celsius with the humidity, he had started his day at first light. He had been gone for four hours. I watched him work, from my spot in the kitchen. Guilt, for not being out there seems to be a wasted emotion these days because I cannot help him, and it has to be done. There is good news, I am healing so next year there is hope. There is always hope.

Those sixteen panels of fence that had blown down during that storm over a month ago had to be replaced. Our rotation of pasture land is not even an option at this stage in the drought. Our cows wander where ever they like. Hay bales, sit in the field behind the house so that I can see them, and count them and keep a close eye on them. They always come back to it after repeatedly trying to find those strips of green they used to find and savour that are no more.

The water holes have been holding up, barely. With no rain forecast in the future, there have been ideas thrown around.  Words like drilling, digging and the one that is not going to happen unless we get pushed into a corner, selling. Oh yes, that is a word that sits in the back of my mind. My Hero, ever the optimist will not even mention that word. It runs through my head over and over. It scares me, and I know it would be so difficult for My Hero and me to have to go through that again. Yes, we have been there before.

We are not alone it looks like many countries are in the same boat. “Boat,” would imply water, there is none falling it seems anywhere right now. Temperatures are hitting record highs on both sides of our borders. Memories of watching the news, years ago, where farmers were lined up to sell cattle are still stuck in the memories of most farmers. 

There were no buyers, or very few, so the prices were rock bottom. No one had a choice but to sell. The difference back then was that on the other side of the country, there were still rich pastures and lots of hay so they were the still buying the cows. This year, this drought problem seems to be widespread. That is not a good thing. The crops in the fields around here are struggling. The soybean and corn are shrivelling, with colours of yellow and brown most without beans or corn on them. They are dying.

We shall take care of our cows and get through this the best we can. We must never guess about the future. Life has many twists and turns and you just never know what is right around the next bend.

To all my fellow farmers out there take care, and do not give up hope. We have been here before, and we will get through it once again.

It has rained a few times. The trees hold out their curled leaves and look up to the sky. I think of Oliver Twist and imagine them saying, “More please” and I am sure it will come. Yes, it will.



  1. It will come. It has to come! I feel for you, so much. You are doing the best you can to care for your ladies, I know. Hugs!

  2. "The water holes have been holding up, barely. "

    But, still. Barely is enough. For now. :-) It will rain soon. It always does!

  3. Drought is a scary reality for too many.
    Sending oceans of caring (and hope) your way.

  4. hoping you will get some relief soon.

  5. Hi Girl,

    Just now getting back into blogging. I sure hope you get some rain. I know we need it too. It's just so dry. Our neighbor caught his yard on fire the other day! We don't have a farm though, so our problems are not the same as yours. I pray for you to get rain, and healthy. Thinking of you.

    Cindy Bee

  6. So sad to hear of dry grass crunching under your feet; I'm not a praying person, but I'll pray for rain for you.

  7. I hope you get rain soon. It is bad enough here when we don't get rain to replenish my thirsty garden but being on a farm must be so frustrating. Good luck. I hope it rains soon.

  8. I pray you and other farmers get much needed rain in your areas soon.

    We also need rain down here in s.e. FL. It keeps being predicted but goes around.

    It will come eventually.

    Love & hugs to you ~ FlowerLady

  9. I'm so sorry I've not visited your blog in awhile. Just reading about the drought and about your back issues. Praying for both. I am blessed with a healthy back, but my husband, my farmer, he fights it all the time and it is rough. And the drought, well, I understand that as well. We had a horrible drought in 2012, and we had to sell some (not all) of our cattle, at low prices. But you can't keep what you can't feed, so while we hated to do it, we had no choice. I understand exactly the emotions you are experiencing. I am praying for rain for you and for all of the farmers. Yes, God is in control. And I'm praying for a complete healing for your back in Jesus name. Nothing is too difficult for our God. The only limits He has are the ones we put on Him by trying to bring Him down to our size. How silly of us. He who spoke the world into motion is more than able to handle things that concern us. Blessings to you my sweet friend. God is good.

  10. Reminds me of the year we bought peanut hay! Some farmer had the great idea after his crop was harvested to round bale the plants, roots and all with a few peanuts clinging. The cattle loved it and what other wise would have been waste saved many.

    Many people are in the same boat even if it's dry docked. Although we have no cattle now, I still mourn the lowering creek and ponds. Oh, that you were close, your cows could graze away and you could take my hay home with you.

    I wish you rain, endurance, healing and patience. Times do get better.

  11. I hope you get some rain soon buttons...and I hope you get relief soon too...hugs!

  12. All the farmers I know walk around with an air of worry about them. Nature can be so generous - and no so. I hope that good rains are soon falling on your farm (and mine). Hugs to you.

  13. It will come and hopefully soon.

  14. We have had rain in the last few days/nights . . .
    I am trying to send it your way . . .

  15. I am sorry you are dealing with no rain. We have had a dryer summer than most, but thankfully we are still getting some rain.
    It has been a dry, hot summer for many.
    I hope you get the rain you need!!!

  16. Hopefully the rain will come your way soon.

  17. I hope you get the much needed rain soon. I remember our two year drought and the ten dollar a bale hay that my husband had to drive far away to get. I hope to never go through that again. We have gotten a bit of rain lately, but the heat is never ending. I am counting the days until fall. Oh, btw, I sent you a note on fb about the house you were working on. I didn't know if you got it or not. Have a great day!!

  18. Stay positive! I wish we could share our abundance of rain with you. We got 2 inches again last night which we didn't need. The wheat has rust from the wet weather:(

  19. Hang in there, Miss B. We are in the same boat with you. We have caught a few showers, but the burnt up, straw like grass, heat and wind are all part of our daily life too.

    Prayers and optimism.

  20. My apologies for not paying you a visit for a while. You have to forgive this ancient who sometimes gets a little behind. I am so sorry to know you are having physical problems and hope all will soon mend.
    So many farmers in Australia go through what you are going through year after year. Some are forced to give up but most persevere with some help from the government. In our eastern states there are areas that have had too much rain. It is a topsy turvey world these days as far as the weather goes.
    Hope you soon get the much needed rain and things get back on an even keel.


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